Friday, November 17, 2006
Im about to fall ....
But like wat ma uncle told me ....
Wat im facing is just peanuts ... they are facing the whole mountain ....
After tis .... i know tat i will b a much stronger person ....
Promised them tat i will never cry ....
But i know tat ... i wanted to see ma babe now ....
Just to know tat he will always b there for me ....
Especially wat im goin thru .....
I want to hug him badly ....
Its like a stab in the heart ....
Im confused ..... i don know wat to do either ....
I dont know wat will happen tomorrow ....
I dont know wat will happen after tis as well ...
Tho im suppose to b celebrating after finishing my college life ....
But i just cant .... not now .... not soon as well ...
Sorry for turning u guys down ... but i just cant leave them now ....
They need me ... they need my support ...
The responsibility i have now is something tat nvr crossed my mind b4 ....
Tackle every prb one by one ... and close file ... end of the story .....
Hoping for the best ....
Its heartbreaking ... to meet up wit them just now .....
Putting a fake smile all the time ... just bcoz im there ...
Its been sleepless nite for everyone ....
And im tired .....
Went down to see the security guards ....
Hope mum can have a goodnite sleep tonight ....
Keeping my finger crossed .....
.........
Just talked to ma babe .... too bad ... i cant hold on any longer ...
Bursted into tears on the phone ... crying like a baby ....
You told me to relax .... chill ....
I cant babe ..... i just cant ....
I miss u dear ..... i miss dad as well ....
Like wat u told me .. no point of crying ....
I know dear ... but i just cant help it ....
Im scared ....
Not wat will happen to me .... but them ....
They are my everything ....
And to those people ....
OVER MY DEAD BODY AND I MEAN IT ... I WILL KILL U MYSELF WIT MY OWN BARE HANDS IF ANYTHING HAPPEN TO THEM ....
10:16 PM
