Love.... a self suicide

Friday, January 12, 2007

What is love?

Some people are materialistic ... some people are just desperate ..... some people seek high and low for it ... some people dont even bother about it ...

People do come and go in life .... that is what just happened to me ....

Its the most hurtful kinda feeling .... its like ur backbone just for comfort has been taken away .... the whole world is turning against you and u always told urself that 'i wont be able to love someone again' .....

Everything i've did for him is just for him ... nothing is for me and i didnt complain at all coz everything i sacrifice wit all my effort is just to put a smile on his face ... and to me .. its priceless .... all i did is just to bring him back a life of a 22 year old guy should have .....

From day one ... to me is miracle .... everything seems to be working out pretty fine ... and all the time ... i got most of my comfort is from him ..... not to say i put it as a habit ..... the feeling i just cant get from other people .....

No one is perfect in life .... he broke my heart ... and he just throw it away without a reason .... im in pain .... the most painful feeling i had ever experience throughout the whole 20 years of my life ....

People often told me to take it as a challenge .... to me .. its a war and i lost the battle ....

I'm trying my very best to life back ma own lifestyle .... but till today ... everything in ma sight is him ... from bumping into his ex gf till bumping into his cousin brother ... bumping into many cars wit the same car plate number .... and ma favourite drink is gin tonic .... im goin mad anytime soon .....

Babe ... i know u do have your own reason .... and i didnt blame you for that .... i miss you a lot dear .... as if u will read ma blog btw .... if u even hav the time ....

I tried and did soo many things just to get back ma comfort ..... tho its just for short term ..... from changing my hairstyle till getting ma nose pierced .. getting a large piece of tattoo .... i did change ma look ... i did change my mindset ....changed the way i look at things now ... but i still cant change the way i love him ...

People seek for comfort in many ways .... some opt to gamble ... getting theirself drunk ....changing their enviroment till getting themself a substitute .... but tats for short term only ... tho memories can be wipen away .... but not the feeling inside the heart ...

Though its wrong for him to treat me like that ... but i've accept the fact and tried to move on .... and i still love him as much i do till today .....

Im willing to wait even for 5 years ....y not a lil more then?

9:37 AM

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