Don know why .... felt damn fucked up today ... even when Lina was tattooing me .... just felt damn numb ... even not tat much blood came out as well ....

The only part whereby can feel ur skin being cut wit a sharp knife was when she was retouching the butterfly .... but think about all the shyts happening in my life .... the pain was just nothing as compared wit the pain i have inside me ......

Somehow .... felt that everyone felt pretty fucked up today..... me , Prema and even Lina ..... tho Michelle was a lot better today compared wit yesterday and the day before yesterday ... just have that really crappy feeling ......

But Simon , Vann and Eddy was damn hyper ..... so they did make me feel a lot better after talking to them .....

Came back and slept off like a dead pig till 9 something ..... and woke up wit an even crappy feeling ...... gosh ... wat the fuck is wrong with me ......

Felt a lot better after talking to him on the phone ..... lol ..... he sounded damn tired and half dead .... kakakakakakakakaka funny man .....

Somehow ... i don wana fall into the trap for taking it as an addiction .... but tat do work to me somehow ..... i need a life back ... what am i talking about ? no worries ... im not into drugs or smoking those craps .....

Kimi is damn sick these few days ... hope he is alright ...

10:20 PM