Love.... a self suicide

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Life Is a Bitch ....

Imagine me cutting my wrist .. and just leave myself bleed to death ... so that i don have to bare wit the pain anymore ....

Or myself taking drugs and ended up dying due to drug overdose .......

At times .... thinking ... what will the last thing u do when u know that u will take ur last breath tomorrow ? ..... that question really did make me questioning myself of what i wana do on the last day i live on this earth ? ........

Michelle asked me that question earlier ... and i answered her that i do wanna take a superbike and race at the track ... i didnt gave her tat answer coz of what he is doin .... its something that i wanted to do since i was a lil kid .....

Its great all the time whereby some people do enjoy speed just like me ..... some might think that its stupid coz u might just get killed in the end .... well .. life is a bitch btw .... n its all fated if god wanted u to go up to him when the time comes ....

The second thing i wanted to do is to get a huge ass tattoo on my back and calf .... call me nuts or what so ever ... as if i didnt get stares b4 at public .... do i look like monkey to u btw ? so y people like to judge me coz im doin something i like ? .... its ok la .. im used to it btw .....

But i just dont get it .... why people love to judge one another ? ... all i can say is fuck off and get away from me .... people dont appreciate my innerself but to judge me physically .... to u people .... fuck off from my life ... thank you =)

Everything is getting out of control now ... its not abt wats goin on in my life ... its the way i handle things ... im just too numb ... i just lost my feelings to everything ... basically everything around me .... im soo blind .... im soo deaf ... i cant feel anything till i realised i got some cuts on my knee after seeing some blood splashing out from me .... till i saw blueblack on my body then only i know tat i hurt myself ....

3 sessions of tattooing and the amount of blood its more than enough to fill my sanitary pad ....n it was painless ... gosh .. im goin mad soon ....

12:55 AM

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20 this year and gonna live life to the fullest

currently doing Graphic Design at IACT ... love it!

LovesY
Tattoo and Piercings
Modifying Accessories and my stuffs ..love doin it my way
Marlboro and Dunhil , Boozes , MAC
Gothic , History , Superbikes
My beloved family and my great bum buddies

HatesN
People with no self respect
Heartless mother fuckers ... go eat shit you fucker
People wit ego problem
Those who cant even b honest ...
Hypocrites...buy ur own words man!
People who loves to judge others ..u think that u r perfect?

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