Love is a self suicide

2008-01-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

-Its the end-

sayonara people ...

2007-12-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

I cant see the future anymore .. is this the end of me?

what is life to you ?
what is hope and dreams to you?

the impact isnt there anymore for me to go on any further....
does this mean its the end of me?

all i wanted and to wish for now is a blessfull christmas with my family and friends ... a moment that will last till i take my last breath on earth ....

im tired of everything .. the baggage is just unbareable .. including the pain inside myself ... and all i know .. the baggage is in my mind ...

who am i? where do i belong to?
seems to be lost in the world full with darkness yet unbareable pain within myself...

nothing is in my mind now ... plain pitch black with no echoes...
no light to shine through .. no destiny .. just nothing ....

the end of me will bring happiness to everyone?

emotional yet paraniod of everything .. the evidence proclaimed as who i am...

this shows how insecure i am now ...

the world is just evil ... what can make it comes to an end?

2007-12-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

FUCK U LA

2007-12-10T09:08:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Today marks the day for my daddy .. love u dad hell a lot! muaks! .. thanks for everything ... every advise and love will be cherished forever dad... love u daddy!

Went to Rum Jungle last Friday with bf and his cousins .. lol i prefer the new Rum Jungle now tho! hell a lot better than the previous one ... they were playing rock songs the whole nite! from bon jovi to the cranberries ... never know how much i enjoyed myself that night!

Headed over to Hapen on Saturday night wit daddy to celebrate his birthday! .. everyone was there .. so happy! .. 3 huge chocolate cakes to his flaming lamborgini .. me also want! lol ... got back home around 12 something .. realised i wasnt feeling that well .. bf came over and bring me to the clinic ... then only i realised that i got my self a slight fever with a very bad throat infection ....

Not to forgotten .. bf surprised me not long ago wit HIM's dvd! ... i was like the happiest girl alive man! ... blast my surround system the whole day! including his as well when i was at his place! .... haha

Alrite la .. got to head over to college soonish ... u take care people! .. cheers!!

2007-12-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

At times i wonder .. why people can be so farking lame .. doing stuffs that pisses people off all the time ... and underestimating others ... they didnt realised that i keep my mouth shut all the time doesnt mean that im blind or stupid .... i opt not to be bothered about ur lame and yet immatured actions ... things that u do doesnt bring u any good btw ... i haven open my mouth yet doesnt mean u hav to push my mood button all the time trying hard to get me annoyed .... i bet u dont wana c the worse out of me .. u never know wat i can do ... so just get a life and fark off !!!

2007-11-29T09:38:00.000+08:00

Blood + ...

Staring at the glass window at an anime shop ... admiring all those lovely acessories there ... one which caught my attention and his as well ... it was a key from the anime , blood plus ... didnt bother much at first coz im really broke ... walked around the shop ... then realised tat bf actually bought it for me ... i was shocked but nothing beats the happy me .... hehe .... thanks dear ... love ya!!

2007-11-26T06:55:00.000+08:00

Penang !!

Sorry about my dissapearance once again people .. i was at Penang wit bf this few days ... lol it was a last minute planning ... on that day only i decided to go ... packed my stuffs and rushed all the way to Puduraya and hop into the bus with him at night .. everything happened within 2 hours ... lol ...

I had a blast while at Penang !!!... went to many places(from the land to the hill .. lol the beach to the clubs!) and makan damn a lot man! .. the best was at 4pm ... both of us ended up eating 7 different kinda noodles that i didnt c b4 back in KL ...lol im gonna b a pig addy now! lol lol

Why we suddenly went to Penang? the main thing actually was to attend his bestfwen's wedding ... lol met a lot of his fwens! all damn sakai ... even more sakai than him man ... lol ... managed to picked up some dialect as well .. gonna brush up on it now ....

Both of us didnt have much sleep ... lol was out the whole day for the past 4 days man in the role man...

Got back last night around 8 .... was so tired till i fell asleep while unpacking my stuffs ... hahahahaha ... pictures is all with him ... so gonna update about it later la ....

Alrite .. tats all for now .... gonna get ready for class .. chiao chee bye people! lol

2007-11-20T19:06:00.001+08:00

Fucking bastard... u wait n c

2007-11-19T06:41:00.000+08:00

Its the end of my holiday...

Sorry for abandoning my blog ... lol was enjoying my holiday hehe ... wow all i can say is that tis is a really long holiday to me in a way tho its only for freaking 2 weeks ... i went to many places .. from 2 trips to genting to langkawi and sunway lagoon ... and not to forget my char kuey teow at taipan .... lol ... damn a lot of dramas man .. and nothing beats what happened last night at hartamas square ....

Some fucking bitches went n splash water at my gf .... stupid bitch ... splash splash water .. is tat all u can do? im not here being a racist bitch .. but the fight ended up being an issue about racism .... lucky bf was there with me ... really thank god man ....and not to forget .. that bitch ended up with a huge cut at her forehead .... she really bleed like a real idiot man .... tis is call PADAN MUKA .... police arrived .. and they are nice enough to escort me and my bf out of that place coz it was hell surrounded by machans .....

Glad that no one was hurt but only tat cb face bitch ... heard she ended up with 5 stitches at her forehead ... ah cantik sial! .....

At times i wonder the differences in human's mentality ... some can be too cool and some can be a real paranoya at times .... some can think straight and some ah .. a lil kukuted at their fucked up head .... the things that people do to hurt the other ....come on man! we are all human being! just live together gether in a harmony and peaceful condition la! ....y la wana cari pasal n all .. like nothing else better to do in life .... so all i can say is CHEERS TO TAT BITCH WHO GOT HERSELF 5 STITCHES AT HER FOREHEAD FOR BEING AN IDIOT WITH HER IMMATURE FARKED UP HEAD!

2007-11-13T19:49:00.001+08:00

2007-11-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

I will never be a happy girl ...

2007-11-06T19:55:00.000+08:00

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK FOR GOD'S SAKE!

2007-10-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELL ... U KNOW WAT? IM NOT BOTHERED ANYMORE ...

2007-10-29T08:59:00.000+08:00

Fucken College ..

Bloody hell ... i rush my assigment like fuck the whole yesterday for tat stupid 100 slides presentation .... just now college called me and told me class canceled ... MCH .... waste my time ... summore i woke up so early for wat? .... cb tootssss ... rush my sketch book also ... draw n draw so tat i can hand it up today ... now? ..... WAT THE HELL MAN ..... wat kinda cb college is tis ! .... stupid fark tarts .....everytime also last minute ..... everything also last minute .... MCH ... ..... gahhhhh!!!

2007-10-27T19:24:00.000+08:00

Finally ..

I can breath! done wit my com graphic's final assigment which almost causes me permenant brain damage .... lectural is being damn picky man ... sad to day ... his expectation is just not any of our taste .... first time i did my work like so damn colourful ... looks like a forest to me .. but wat to do? tat is wat he wanted from us .... kanasaiiiii

Printing cost me 40 bucks ... bloody rip off ... but tat nice Mr Experdite is so damn funny! and now i know where i can get designs from already .. hoho bloody con job sial!

Sorry people .. i know i've abandoned my blog and my fwens for awhile .. wat to do .. i don even hav time for myself man!

My final presentation tis coming monday ... after tat? LANGKAWI HERE I COME!

Cant wait to get out of KL man! .... eish eish

damn bloody messy and looks like a rainbow sial .. and he still wanted me to add more stuffs!

the final product which im not tat happy about by the way ... but wat to do ... lectural is the boss now!

2007-10-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

alcohol is the only thing tat keeps me off frm my mind ... the pleasure of getting drunk is just marvelous ... u tend to forget about stuffs that is bothering u all these while ... so cheers people~

2007-10-21T22:36:00.001+08:00

life is just a full of shit wit multiply lies that im not bothered anymore

2007-10-20T00:56:00.001+08:00

bunch of mother fucking morons!

2007-10-19T10:31:00.000+08:00

bunch of bastards!

2007-10-09T07:03:00.000+08:00

What If....

I have a million bucks in my account and i would rather leave KL .....

Im rather a strong inside then i wouldn't need to cry myself to sleep all the time ....

Im a bitch so that i wont get myself hurt so easily ..

I dont care or give a fuck to others ... i wont even have to be bothered about human nowdays ...

But then .... my only wish now is to leave KL ... to start a new adventure in life ... a new beginning .....

2007-10-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

Sakaism...

Yea ... i cut my own bangs again ... lol wat to do ... damn broke now mannn

laugh all u want now ...

Was taking some pics ... then lil sis came n kacau me .... lol

lol sakai wit her sotong face ... lol

ahh ... sleepy d?

aisehman ..... like tat also can?

2007-10-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

Sanctuary ...

Tomas and Kah Hong came and picked me up and headed to Fitris while waiting for Ben and Lung to arrive ... yada yada .. and its been awhile since i last lepak wit my fellow highskool buddies man ... lol ... then gave Tomas's studio a visit .. and fell in love with the two lovely cats there man! ... nice place to chill out tho! ... hoho

Then 5 sakais headed over to The Curve to meet up wit Dave they all ... lol .. opened 3 bottles of Black Label which gotten myself real tipsy .... lol but it was fun! hohohohohohooh .. tho the place sucks but i got my old buddies wit me all the time ... hohohohohoohohohhohohohoho ... and as usual ... they drank like a cow there as if there will b no tomorrow mannnn .... lol drank till 2 then headed over to old klang road for bak kut teh! .... lol all bloody pork eater .... lol ... all i can remember was my rice was all over the table n i spilled the soup ... lol lol !

It was real hilarious somehow! ... lol ... and it was an awesome time i had wit them! .. lol pics is with dave so im waiting for tat bugger to send me the pictures .... hohoohohoho

Today marked the day of depression to me somehow .... oct 7th ... wow time really flies man .. if u know me well u should know wat happen on the oct 7th 2 years ago .... sigh ... emoness .....

Oh well .. guess i shall transform myself into a lesbian and pillow will b my first target now ...

Being treated like a real trash aint any funny matter to me now ... wat the fuck is wrong wit the world man ...every single assholes is the main pain in the ass ... Watever la .. screw life and im gonna b a real bitch now ... fuck those assholes and salute to the bitches! .. like it or not its non of my fucking problem now ...

2007-10-06T12:24:00.000+08:00

Yo yo ...

Wow ... realised i didnt update my blog for sometime ... haha ... at last im done wit my first sem in college ... and tat was really really fast tho! ... last class was last Thurday .. ended with our final presentation for Hardip's class ...

My group consist of Jiar , Liyana , Gary and Prema ... and we have to come up wit something with this two words , Freedom and Weary ... lol ... we opt to do a sketch about a doctor(Gary) who is tied up with his work and faces death all the time .. he gotten himself depressed and sad while his wife (me) is really really racist towards the "black" ... then while on the plane , a "black" pregnant lady(Prema) ... wanan kentut the baby out .. then the wife objected her husband to help her coz she is "black" .. lol but the husband didnt bother about his wife and helped the lady to deliver the baby ... lol lol lol ... so then the husband told his wife that its a freedom of choice tho opt wat we wana do ... something like that la .. ended up i cant stop laughing my way through the sketch especially during rehersal ....but i had fun with my group members!

lol b4 our sketch ... lol wat r u doin la omar .... lmfao!!

at the hospital ... lol jiar jiar the narrator .. hoho

when prema about to kentut the baby out .. wit my "husband"lol gary there

lol fazrin the airsteward helping out wit the pilot omar and the rest of the passanger ...

LMFAO LOL finally .. the baby is out wit my pissed face behind gary ... lmfao

HAHAHAHAHAHA ... it was a great experience man ... lol realy had fun ! tho i have to be the bitch la ..... eish eish ... lol lol but it was all worth it!

Was at Flam b4 Pillow went off and the week before as well ... went there wit Pillow , Cheryl and Sotong ... lol had fun man! it was my first time stepping into Flam at Sunway ... tho the club is dominated wit lalas .... but i had my part of fun ! ....

bump back into Nick at Flam ... lol

After Flam .... pillow and i went for a swim at my condo there ....lol omg man .. didnt felt so relaxed for so long ... really really had fun at the pool wit Pillow dear ... sighh ... i miss u d man ...

lol i know lala ok mushroom! ... lol

kena bully .... sobz sobz!! T_T

at the pool ..... lol

Guess wat people ... Ben is back! ~weeee ... he came wit bang to find me at my place ... lol and of coz .. i bring along my absolute citron together with me n headed down to the pool side ... hohohohohoohoohohohoh ... its been awhile since i last saw these two monkeys ... lol

damn dark addy man !

bang and i

Oh yeah ... The Garden open liao! .... i went gogogaga there wit Steph ... i forgot when but it was not long ago ... lol .... and thanks mum for her credit card ! ..... kakakakakakakakka

with Steph ... lol

Went to Maison last Thursday and it was a bomb! ..... went there wit Prema , Ben and Josh .. had our dinner there and headed over to Maison then .... lucky we managed to get a table wit the help of the staff there .... lol lol ... most of my seniors and juniors came ... lol can say its like a reunion for fellow IACT .....

Bump into a lot of people there .... from my highskool juniors to Wee Boon ... lol and not to forget Nat and gang as well!! lol ... just like another reunion wit my fellow fwens ! .... haha ... Hazel came wit her gang as well ... gosh ... i really really had a blast!

And from far ... i spotted Fried Nangka! LOL i ran to him immediatly ... and guess wat ... Weng n all will b coming as well .... LMFAO ... lol

I didnt enjoy myself tat much b4 for such a long time ... lol really really had fun! ... hope to c u all soon aite!

with Cheryl dear outside Maison ... who is tat dude behind? swt ....

Haha .. and of coz ... HAPPY BITRHDAY MUMMY ...love you all the time ...

K la ... a rough update ... more to come soon then .... take care people! and Miss Me!

2007-09-13T05:50:00.000+08:00

Red + Yellow = last week in college

I know it is 6 in the morning .... just finished with my essay for english comm ... holy o joy!! ... don c a point of getting back to bed ... and since i abandoned my blog for quite awhile ... fine .... an update about my last week in college

As you can c from the pics below ... most of us are in red n yellow ... y? .. thanks for the presentation for creative thinking la ... i hardly wear red wan ok! lol ...

K la ... enough of rambling ... let the pics do da talking ...

during breaktime at the coffee shop

together wit Shu May , the Thai girl ... lol

since when we got blue eyes man!

i love my locks !!

back to class ... wit the sakais of IAA67

this explains why man ..... swt

i looked damn tired man ....

the horny express

wit Mr Chong ... gonna miss u all

can sense that the freedom is on its way .... holy o joy ...

with Jiar Jiar dearest

wit prem

candid shot by jiar jiar

with kakak omar! lol ... wonder where he got the wig from man!

finally done with our presentation!

jiar's creation ... lol

after some modification .... lmfao .. tis pic is dedicated to all smokers! bogayaaaaa

last but not least ... a mug shot of me looking stoned as ever ... lol

okie la ... tats all for today ... cheers people!

2007-09-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

My head is fucking killing me !

p/s - learned something new in life ... is to never place any high hopes in any damn thing now ....

2007-09-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Venus Doom ...

Finally done with my newsreading assigment .... gladnessssssssssssssssssssss

Wasnt in the mood these few days .... till last night ... found something which eventually made my day .....

Take a look at the pic below .... a canvas painting?

It's HIM's new album cover!!!!! Venus Doom!!! OMG!!!

As u all know , im basically obsess wit HIM ..... now that was the bomb man! happynesssssss

English Comm class today ended up as Camwhoring class ....lol it started out wit Alia and me ... then the rest joined in .....

peace yor peace ..... (^_^)V

and we hate our bangs ... sighhhh one ended up looking like Cleopetra and another one looking like a typical ah lian ...

Alia looked scary man!!!

fuck u la .... lol

assigments is killing us!

lol lol !!! tis is hilarious!

muaks

Darren then joined us

my long time trademark ... sotong face!

peace man

WTF? .... lol damn poyol la u Aiya!

About a week more to go then im done with my sem one .... now time flies man!

2007-09-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

Im back ..

Thanks to everyone who called and smsed me all these while asking how am i doin ... im about 80% recovered at the moment ... just that the rashes is still there and no worries ... it will go off pretty soon ....

One whole week i was on break due to dengue fever .... thanks to everyone who helped me for my assigments and class work while i was absent ... not to forget .. thanks Joon Hong for accompaning me to the hospital for my blood test .... really really appreciate it !

Started class back last Tuesday .... sad to say tat college life is still the same ... doesnt seems to b appealing to me anymore ... at times i wonder ... why is this happening?

Somehow ... i lost interest in everything now .... not only abt college ... but abt everything in life ....

2007-08-27T06:49:00.000+08:00

What if i am ? so? wat izit gonna do with u?

Non of ur mother fucking business ...

Mind ur own shit first man ... damn free now izit?

Don fucking talk behind people's back .. no guts to talk in front of me izit now?

Just fuck off la for god's sake

nah ... just for u

2007-08-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow

2007-08-26T02:26:00.000+08:00

U KNOW WAT .... FUCK U BITCH .!.

U CAN GET LOST NOW ...

IM NOT BOTHERED ANYMORE .....

JUST FUCKING GET LOST FROM MY LIFE ... I DONT NEED A PERSON LIKE U IN MY LIFE ANYMORE ....

I CANT BELIEVE THAT U ACTUALLY COCK ALL THOSE SHYTS ABOUT ME ....

COMMEN SENSE WILL TELL U THAT IZIT POSSIBLE? REALLY SHALL SALUTE TO U MAN .. THOSE COCKS U MADE UP IS TRULLY UNBELIEVABLE.... WAHSAI .. IM IMPRESSED

AFTER SO MANY SHYTS ... N U DARE TO SAY STUFFS LIKE THAT ABOUT ME? WHEREBY NON OF THEM R EVEN THE TRUTH ...

U THINK THAT ALL THOSE STUFFS WILL MAKE U LOOK GOOD? I DON THINK SO MAN ... IT MAKES U LOOKING LIKE A REAL RETARD FOOL....

ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT ITS MY BAD TO ACTUALLY BLINDFOLD MYSELF ALL THESE WHILE....

ITS OK LA ... WATEVER MAN .... I HAVE NO TIME TO BABYSIT LIARS ANYMORE

U KNOW WAT ? ... JUST FUCK OFF ... WHATEVER SHYT U WANA DO ITS OUT OF MY CONCERN NOW ...

2007-08-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

Reality?

Giving people the benefit of doubts is just making a fool out of myself....

Memories will cherished forever but the pain remains forever ....

Fear of moving on ...having doubts about anything anymore ....

Falling once then i shall step up again ... but falling again kepts me wonder why is this happening to me

Maybe i was wrong about the human nature ... the truth beyond untold ... but the reality in life kept me blinded all the time ....

Its a drug ... an addiction to blindfold myself tat life is just a fairy tale ....

Waking up myself ... a step to a bitter life untold in future ....

Perception towards everything ... everyone seems to be sollow yet painful ...

Everything seems to be a self suicide ... the risk is uncontrolable ... never know when will i fall apart once again ....

Who am i suppose to trust anymore ?

2007-08-24T18:39:00.000+08:00

Thank you ...

First of all ... wana thank Alia , Jiar , Shu May, Shazzy , Wayne and Zarul...... its done wei!!! hohohohohoohohohohohoho ... been working our butt off since 9 in the morning till 5 ......got the stuffs printed and wolla ...... its done and over wei!!! lol .... after all ... i shall just take it as never depend on people anymore man ..... watever la ... im NOT BOTHERED ANYMORE NOW...

And while at the Foyer .... we were asked to head to the photo shooting studio for some photo shoot ..... Jo and all also kena .... lol .... it was kinda funny btw ... everyone was posing wit the cam , video cam , laptop n all .... and Ronnie was damn funny! .... he is the only lectural who actually smoke wit his students .... lol .....i was at the coffee shop while waiting for those people to come ... he came n sat wit me and started yada yadaing abt everything? lol .... and not to forget that he gave me some tips for the next mass comm assigment ... lol thanks wei!!

K la ... my day was farked up since last night itself .... was on the phone for hours n hours man ... everyone was kinda piss for sure ..... including me la .....but im glad tat its over !!

Some mug shot of me and Shu May while at McD .....

poser la

no comment

we love our tongue piercing! lol

the side effects man after such a hectic and chisin day ....

Lol ... and those photoshoot today will b published at Nanyang paper ... err .. i don know when ... lol

2007-08-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

Relief ...

This week wont be such a hectic week for me .... no presentation skills and no mass com class as ... hohohoho ... but have to go over to Naga DDB tis coming Friday ... it clashes wit my History of Arts! how la ...... sigh ......

Done another assigment for Computer Graphic .... Mr Low gave it to us today n asked us to hand it in today as well ... started la ... rush n rush .... finally all of us managed to finish it up in time .... tis wasnt our first time btw ... happen b4 ....

Now i have to brainstorm n kill some braincells for the magazine ... tat bloody Yvonne ... havent even finish our group assigment ... she throw us another individual assigment already! WTF .... damn bloody hate her man .... she is the only lectural tat pisses me off all the time .... never know if she is reading my blog now or not ... whatever ... its my blog btw .... peace to u Yvonne!

Oh yea... got a mug shot frm YC ... a candid shot of me n Cheryl frm Maison that night ... so here u go!

muahahaaha .... Flaming Lamborgini! ...

Btw .... all the best to Pillow jie in her job interview! ....and my condolence to u my dear Jiar ... hope you are alrite k .....

p/s- mushroom ar .... mana lu! ... don la sesat at nowhere !

Finally im relief tat she is alrite .... don la give me heartattack again k ... u know tat im old already ... hehe .... but glad tat you are back my dear!

Alrite la .... tats all for now .... gonna do my assigment d .... take care people! ~cheers~

2007-08-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

Where do I belong ..

Stuck in the world of self denial.....

Nothing seems to be real .... everything seems to be just an illusion ...

Blinded by everything around ...

Depression is taking over its toll ...

No one to hear the scream ... nor to wipe out the tears ....

What is going on? ....

Tho you no longer exist .. but each and every memories is the one controlling over everything ... basically everything in life ....

When can i be awake from this fairy tale tat doesnt even exist at all ?

2007-08-18T19:33:00.001+08:00

Maison...

It was Cherly's 23rd birthday yesterday! ... celebrated at Maison ... lol lucky i managed to get a table for all of us and of coz ... a bottle of Barcadi for FREE! lol ... love me everyone! hohohohohooh .. and also to celebrate Pillow's graduation ... lol wow .. time flies man

Guess what man .... MUSHROOM IS BACK LOL OMG ... damn farking happy!!!

LOL ... then Gine taught me how to shuffle ... i bet i looked like an idiot there shuffling wit my dress n heels ... lol but i had fun! lol

Alrite la ... i shall just let the pictures do the talking now ..

mushroom deariemiss u a lot man!

3 of us got urself wasted last night man ...

lol tis explains how drunk we were

LOL

wit the Birthday girl! Happy Birthday Cheryl!poser sial

lol i like tis pic!

All i can say is tat it was a real madness night man ... lol !!! ... somehow it was great and awesome time .... hahaha

Btw ... thanks mushroom for da ciggies and earrings man ! love it !!! lol love u dearie!!

See you guys soonish alrite! lol .... yipeeeee

2007-08-13T06:18:00.000+08:00

Di Persimpangan Dilema ....

Masa berlalu
Tanpaku menyedari
Percintaan yang kita bina
Hampir terleraiApa salahku
Kau buatku begini
Dalam dilema
Di antara jalan derita
Tidak pernah kuduga
Ini semua terjadi

Janganlah engkau
Menghancurkan segala
Setelah lama
Kita mengharungi bersama
Usah biarkan
Cinta kita yang suci
Dilambung ombak
Karam dilautan berduri
Hanya satu pintaku
Moga kau menginsafi
...............semua ini

Telah banyak yang kuberi
Sejak dulu lagi
Pengorbanan tiada pernah jemu
Hanyalah Tuhan saja
Bisa menentukan semua
Kesabaran daku menantimu
Kutetap memaafkan
Dan berdoa kau kembali
Sebelum diri melangkah pergi

Happiness or sadness ... its the way of life ....
The future beyond untold .... the question remains a mystery .....

Afraid to take a step futher ..... will the history repeat itself all over again?
Doubts spinning thru my head .... insecure is how i feel ....
Why i ended up in such a way of bitterness? ....

All i can do is to hope for miracle to exist in life ....
The one and only hope left ....

2007-08-13T00:31:00.001+08:00

Boo-yaaa

Yahooo .... at last! done wit the layout for the Johnny Depp's article for the magazine .... lol thanks to Pillow man ... and of coz ... to the Adobe Illustrator and Photoshop as well .... hohohohooho

Got some pictures from Aunt Sookie .... hehe ... so here i am ... happily smiling all over again ... here you go people..

Baby Nathan ... my half chinese half vietnamiese cousin bro

Nathan with his mummy dearest ... i miss her a lot ...

Just got back from Wings Bistro by the way .... of coz ... went there wit Pillow ... hoho ... cant believe it man ... we hanged out 4 times this week! lol ... the highest record so far man .. and of coz ... same record with Sze Mun b4 she went off to US ....lol

I really love that place man ... awesome yet damn chillaxing place .... and the best part ... most of the time when we hit that place ... is for our assigments ... hohohoohoh .... and we managed to get our work done all the time! .... lol

Since i brought my lappie there earlier .... so and of coz ... we took some pictures ... wakaakaakaaka

y emo face la ...
ah ... the sakainess just started ...

i like tis pic somehow ... hohoh
lol ... happily posing wit our purchase few dayz ago ...

I know la ... less than a week then u will b graduate .....me? 2 and a half more years to go man! too much! lol

By da way ... im alrite and fine everyone ... not worries abt me k!

And pity my pillow .... kena saman 2 times in da same week at the same place wit the same reason y .... sighhh

p/s- will the history repeat itself again?

2007-08-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

Tough Luck ...

As you guys know ... i met an accident last Thursday .... i was on my way to college using the Seremban Highway near Midvalley there ..... as usual ... the traffic was terrible ... i managed to cut my way to the middle lane on the way to the Federal Highway ... suddenly .... just out of a sudden a bike slammed onto the back of my car .... WTF .... stopped at the side to check the car ... nice la .... the backlight on the left side is gone and dented as well ... tat dude was hurt btw ... his leg was badly swollen .... but wat can i do la .... tail people's car summore ... cut here cut there wit their bike la ... whereby there is a motorbike lane for them .... so ride safe people ... sighh ... people nowdays ...

Wasnt in the mood then ... so i didnt go to college .... Pillow came and took me out ... really thanks a lot my dear .... really really appreciate it ... many people called me and asked me how am i ....thanks everyone! love u all

Yesterday ... went to the police station wit dad to make the police report .... everything ended up getting myself damn pissed and irritated but the people there told me not to worry coz it wasnt my fault at all .... cant make it to class on time as well ... around 3 something ... Pillow came and pick me up and went over to her crib ... she knows tat i wasnt in the mood at all ... so she got herself ready and off we headed over to Sg Wang .. we were there on the day b4 as well btw .... lol ....

Yada yada ... smoke smoke .... then of coz ... shopping! .... wahsai .... 3 days in a week .. i wonder how much we spend addy man ..... lol ... pillow got herself a cute lil dress for only 15 bucks! wat a steal man! .. and i got a top for 35 bucks ... walk walk then gave Weng and Leong a visit ... those two sakais actually make tat small lil boy cry man ..... it was damn hilarious! lol ... cant stop laughing our asses off i tell you ..

Went over to tis lil shop selling those cute lil stuffs ... saw a strawberry umbrella! omg .... lol ..... then of coz .... the whole shop is full wit mushrooms! lmfao! both of us having a great time laughing our asses off.... miss u la Sze Mun! faster come back! lol ....ended up Pillow got herself a mushroom ring while i got the ring of lil Melody .... ohohohohoohohohohohoh.... our last stop was at Hapen ..... daddy and all was there .... drink drink ... yada yada then home sweet home .....

Its a pretty bad time im having i should say ....but its alrite .... nth much i can do about it rite?

at Wings ..a bistro at BB ... awesome place to chillax

our purchase ... lol

lol damn cute man!

was on the phone wit my jie .... lol tis pic is for u my dear!!!

Really wana thank everyone ... especially daddy , my pillow jie , papa zul , jiar and everyone who called and asked me how am i .... love u all!

2007-08-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

The only thing tat makes me smile ...

Realised how much i miss my aunt .... lucky wit the greatest invention of msn and sms ... i managed to catch up things wit her ... but not lately ... she must b busy wit baby Nathan for sure ... hehe ... pityness! lol

She send me some pics recently .... omg .... its just like the world is alive again ... can sense the smile is back onto my face ....

Here you go people .... baby Nathan , my beloved cousin ...

he look exactly like my aunt man!

Aunt's fav pic ... wit his muffin hat ... lol

i love him man ...

Sigh ... i misses everyone man ... especially my aunt ... come back fast u spongebob aunt!

2007-08-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

How would you feel if

1. your fwen started ditching you off just like tat?
2. people that you trust is the one dissapointing you?

Well ... whatever man .... i had enough wit these kinda drama ... leave it back to those highskool days man!

And you know what ... im not bothered ... you can go n rot n die now ... non of my business ...

Hoho ... carefree man ... u wana do watever shit u wana do its non of my business for now ... no time to babysit people like that anymore in life ....

Btw ... did some drawings recently .... a really good way to kill time and to destress somehow ...so here you go ...

the reality in life ...

the black and white wings ...

If you know me well enough ... i bet u can tell why i started drawing these two pictures ....

Btw ... thanks Pillow for helping me out for da wings! lol ... and tat sakai now is lying on my bed reading my fav book .... lol she is hooked to it now ! sakainess!! told u its good ! hohohohoohohohohoho

K la ... tats all ... and nitez people

2007-08-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

Relief ...

At last ... done wit my presentation and sketch today .... can take a deep breath now man ... lol finally i can feel the wonderfulness of life ... lmfao ... k la ... don wana b so dramatic ... lol

Suppose to do the taggies from Kel Li and Sze Mun .... lol ... lazy la somehow ... later alrite! wana update abt myself first since i abandoned my blog for dunu how long liao ... hoho

Watched Invisible Target abt 2 weeks back! ... Awesome movie man! *two thumbs up!* ....its a must watch movie man! lol ... and thanks for da movie my dear! ... hope u get well soon *winks* ... and DOTA LESS !

Alrite ... back to today .... went over to 69 Bistro wit my Pillow dearest ! ... love that place man ... damn chillaxing and nice place to kap chais also .... hohohoohohohohohoho...

Both of us got ourself a newhair do! ... she got her locks curled which looks awesome on her while i got my fringe chopped .... sick and tired wit my no left no right fringe ... i got soo sick wit it till i actually clipped it up most of the time in college ... ended up looking like some immigrants from China.... lol

Some pictures we took just now wit my lappie ....

the two happy sakais
guess tis is why we both share the same surname ... lol

LMFAO LOL damn cute wei !

tis sakai was damn hyper man when she was in front of the webcam .... lol

Had an awesome time wit tis sakai pet sis of mine .... lol ... c u tomorrow alrite! ... love u girl!!

Btw .... to another goodfwen of mine(no name to be mentioned and don ask me who).... its hard for me to see you killing urself like that ... whats the point girl? ... life goes on no matter what .... its time to stand up and say its enough ... how much more pain u wana gulp in? .... no matter what ... im always here for u k .... love u girl ...

Last but not least ... hope Jiar's grandma will gets better ....

Alrite ... thats all for today .... till then! ADIOS!

2007-07-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

Mojo...

Was at Asian Heritage yesterday wit my darlings ... NadZ is back ! ~weeeeeeeee .... Pillow came over to my place around 6 to do her hair and make up ... after that , she went over to Wangsa Maju to pick up her fwens while i headed over to NadZ's place to pick her up ...

Stupid jam man ..... took us 45 mins just to get to KL .... knn ....

Had our dinner first then headed over to Mojo for a drink ....

Lucky didnt rain man ..... lol ordered our Bombay Saphire while the others had their Long Island Tea .....

Got home pretty early ... was damn tired man somehow ... lol but it was a great nite !

mind my sepetness .... hate the flash!

groupie pic!

K la ... tats all for now ... Kel Li tagged me man ... later only la ... damn lazy n no mood now ... toodles people

2007-07-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

Vector ...

At last , submitted my com graphic's assigment! ~weeeee .... it was given abt 2 weeks ago and due today ....

I like vector tho! lol its fun! but all the work u hav to do man .....

Its just like converting an original picture into a graphic form .... using the stupid pen tool do draw every single damn details man ...... do until i wana puke liao.....so this is the end result

Kat Von D from Miami Ink

and of coz .... mua .... lol dad said i looked like i got botox done .... swt

Btw ... thanks Pillow and Richard for helping me out! ... and finally .. its done and over !!

2007-07-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

When you're gone...

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie

Is made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

Class today was just terrible ..... everyone's mood swing like no ones business .. and mine as well ....

Did something whereby i dont even see a point there ....

What's the point ? .....

Im tired of babysitting everyone .... who is there to babysit me la now?

Life is just a real bitch ......

Camwhored in class .... too bad .... Mass Comm class SUCKS TO THE MAX ... I FARKING HATE TAT BITCH MAN ... WORST LECTURAL EVER .... KNN

2007-07-17T15:43:00.000+08:00

Tropic Oasis , Bangsar

Finally got the pictures from Shazzy! lol thanks man!

Was at Tropic Oasis about 2 weeks ago .... i bet i did a post about this previously ...

So here you go people!!!

Looking like an idiot as usual

cant remember wat the *toots* i was doing
wit Prema darling

with Pillow dear

Alia the bitch ... lol jk girl! u know i love u!wit Shazzy! ... thanks for the pictures !

wit Wayne

da girls ! ... i love tis picture man!

last but not least ....Groupie picture!

lol .... had a blast wit them .... still remember we headed off to Asian Heritage for 2nd round .... hahahahahaha

2007-07-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

God He Reigns ( All I Need Is You)...

Holy one , holy one

All creation bow to worship

Halleluyah , halleluyah

Glory in the highest

And I will sing , and I will sing

Praises , forever

God he reigns , god he reigns

Holy is the lord of heaven

God he reigns , god he reigns

Forever

All I need is you ,

All I need is you lord , is you lord

All I need is you

A powerful song which can help me to keep myself on track....

From the beginning when u took ur first till your last breath on earth ... every step you take in life ... its in god's plan

No matter wat is the outcome in whatever you do ... god has his own purpose no matter the outcome is good or bad .....

Every tears you cried .... every single drop of it will b witness by god .... no one can hear you cry but him ....

Cherish every moment you can ..... life is just short .....

the cross will glow no matter where you are .... just have faith

2007-07-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

Im at Richard's place now .... first time blogging wit my laptop ... lol ......

I love this place! .... can smoke , drink and do my work at the same time ... lol ~weeeeeee

Alrite ... call me insane la ... im damn hyper somehow these few days ....

Alia ! tis is for u! ... thanks for calling me lala!! LMFAO

2007-07-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

Club Hopping ...

Thursday .... headed over to Asian Heritage wit Prema and Jiar ..... we started out at Cynna ... then Loft .... then to Maison ... lol it was a real madness nite man ... the amount of people there is more than enough to form a country ..... lol ....

Rico and gang came ... Shazzy and gang ... and not to forget Nat and her fwens ... oh yah! Weng came and find me as well ... lol ... 2 of his fwens tagged along .....

Some people that i dont wana see came as well ..... so I grab Weng and his fwens to the dance floor there .... lol .... it was real hilarious ! ... lol .... laugh my asses off the whole nite man ....

Got home around 3 in the morning ..... it was a real tiring nite mannnnn .......

Saturday ... it was a last min plan when Keeran smsed me asking me to come to Asian Heritage for a drink ... it was their MC's reunion ..... so Pillow came over to my place ... make up and do her hair for her ... then both of us headed over to Asian Heritage around 10 .....

Met up wit Boon and Keeran ..... then headed to the nearest mamak first coz Pillow is hungry .... Sanjev was there ... so yada yada .... after awhile .... Adrian came wit his gf .... then all of us headed over to Bed coz Loft was packed like sardin .......

Opened 2 bottles of Dewars ..... and i had my Gin Tonic! ..... lol ... then Sanjev's fwen came and 2 other MCrian as well ...... lol lucky one more MC fellow didnt come ... he cant make it coz he got race coming up ... THANK GOD MAN .... lol

It was my first time stepping into Bed ... and i shall say .... NOT BAD MAN! .... it was packed ... but its nice! .... nice songs and nice enviroment! ... and not to forget the Dj there is damn hot man!!!!

Pillow and I dances our asses of at the podium ..... who cares man ..... lol .... drink n drink till 2 ....

It was a great nite i shall say! I HAD FUN!! ....

On Thursday .... wit Prema and Jiar ... mind my sepetness lol

At Bed wit Pillow! .. that place can really make u blind one day man ....
Sanjev wit his Flaming Lamborgini

Boon and I

Was stuck in the jam wit Pillow on our way home ....

It was a madness week man .... 4 clubs in a week .... lol ... but watever! i had fun!

2007-07-11T16:43:00.000+08:00

10 main reasons y im pissed ...

1. i got 4 assigments to do man! WTF
2. i got class on friday now .... WTF
3. guys r all idiots ... u know y
4. ciggie price increased ! elo ? u think wat? we shit money wan now izit?
5. everysingle damn day i hav to dig for coins for tat cb meter
6. some bitches in college is just irritating
7. things tat i want i cant hav it.. things i don wan just slapped right to my face
8. im broke .... farking broke .... gonna eat grass pretty soon
9. stupid weather is melting me now ..... I NEED COLD AIR!
10 .... im just pissed!

Thank you ......

2007-07-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those who took the iniciative to sms me and not to forget Sze Mun who purposely call me tho she is at US just to check out how am i doing .....

Im pretty ok for now ... so no worries aite ! ....

Im just up to a point whereby im not bothered about anything anymore .... watever man ....

Got my hair trimmed today ..... so kiss my ass u fucking split ends! ...

Computer Graphic's class tomorrow .. im sure he will throw us another assigment ..... WTF ...

I got 3 assigments to do now and not to forget the presentation tis coming Thursday .... mahai ...

Oh well .... i don know where to start now ..... farking tired .....

p/s- oh well ... u know wat? im not gonna bother about it anymore .... watever la

2007-07-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

Confession ....

Im goin psycho soon ..... i get stressed or tensed up pretty easily these few weeks .... i don know why .... i know myself that i do hav anger management problem ... and yeah ... i admit that i do hav .....

Realised that i cant handle things like i used to do .... i miss everyone .....especially Sze Mun , Jack and Nadia ..... really miss them a lot ... they r always by my side when i needed a shoulder to cry on ....

Im worried ...... i think i do hav a problem ..... im felt pretty much insecure about everything around me .... all the time .....

Crying myself to sleep these few days ..... when will it come to an end?

I just need a time out for myself .... i need a break from everything ......

Think im goin crazy anytime soon ... how much more can i handle it?

Life is a real bitch to me now ..... everything seems to b perfectly fine at first but turned out to be very sour in the end .....

Guess i shall wake up myself from the happy ending fairytale life ..... and change my conception abt life ... convincing myself that everything is just bitter .....

Where should i go now ..... what is my dreams ? .... i don know ..... i really don know ...

Im just basically being blinded about everything ......

When will it come to an end? ... basically a question wit no answer ...

Do miracle exist by the way?

2007-07-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

Friday ....

Sorry about the lack of update people .... was pretty busy wit college stuffs and finally i get to catch back some breath tis weekend .... ~weeeeeee

Friday was an awesome day i should say .... started off wit lunch wit Kel Li at Kim Gary .... its been awhile since i meet up wit tis girl ....lol .... we talked basically about everything .... then her bf joined us ..... yada yada frm 1 to 5 something ..... lol

Got back home around 5 something b4 the jam start ....lepak awhile then got myself prepared ..... around 7 something , Pillow arrived lol ..... then both of us headed over to Bangsar to pick Prema up from Pelita then headed over to Tropic Oasis to meet up wit Alia , Shazzy and their fwens .... laugh n laugh especially Pillow ..... lol

After that , headed over to Hapen since tat two monkeys wanna meet up wit dad and all ...... drink drink ... laugh laugh again then 3 of us headed over to Asian Heritage around 11 .....

Our first stop was at Morocco while waiting for Omar and Rico they all to arrive ..... drink drink again then headed over to Loft ..... Omar then came wit few of his fwens ... while i was at the dance floor wit Pillow , Prema told me tat she bump into my fwen! tat fellow .... cant manage to meet up during UVNation .... lol .... so we waited awhile ... but wat the heck! Rico and gang went to Bar Blonde! ... so we grab our stuffs and headed over there ..... omg man ... they basically conqured the whole upstairs of that place! .....

Called my fwen then he came! .... he was too bored at Loft .... went down to get him and tat smart fellow waited for me at Mojo instead .... lol cuteness .... he got a shocked when he saw the amount of people at Bar Blonde especially at our table ....

Yada yada wit him ... had a great time laughing my ass off ! .... it feels great having him around somehow ..... finally the smile is back onto my face .... hehe .....

Around 2.30 .... he got to head back to Loft coz his fwens started bugging him already .... so our goodbye ended up wit a kiss at my cheek ... gav him a hug then he went off to Loft ....

Got home around 3 .... lucky dad was already asleep tat time ... lol ..... camwhored a lil wit Prema wit my laptop then chat till 5 something ....

Its an awesome day i should say ... hope i can turn back the time somehow ....

Alrite ... tats all people ! .... hav a great weekend!

wit Kel Li at Kim Gary

thanks for making my day girl!

at Morocco wit Pillow and Prema

smile la Pillow

the sesated Prema

finally .... after dunu how many pictures taken ... lol
the two happy sakais
i failed wit the sotong face tis time badly
i like tis one !

Will the history repeat itself again ? ..... i don know but i hope not .... people told me tat i shall just go wit the flow and time will tell ... but until wat situation that will convince me that life aint a bitch by the way? sigh ....

2007-06-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

Friday ...

At last ... done my presentation ....hope i didnt screw it up .... and as you all know ... i got no class on Friday! lol ... so Jack , NadiaZ and I headed over to KLCC for lunch .... met up wit Alia and her bf Shazzy there .... and Kristine came after while .....

Had lunch at KFC coz Jack wanted to try their new chicken chop .... lol yada yada ... then NadiaZ and I went n met up wit her mum coz she was there tat time as well ...

All 3 of us went gila at Zara coz they are having their sales .... sadly ... everything was pretty much of a dissapointment..... none of us came back wit any purchase .... =(

Dropped NadiaZ home ..... then i headed over to the salon to get my hair snipped ....just the top part coz its like damn flat already ... lol and finally the treatment arrives!!! .... weee ..... eh Prema! .... the salon aunty told me tat the stocks is running low now! ... better get it asap!!

After that .... came home and rested awhile .... rainsacked my whole wardrobe and now it looks like sampah ....and finally got the outfit for at night!! ~weeeee

Went over to NadiaZ place ..... then off we headed over to Asian Heritage row ..... makan at Morocco while waiting for Omar and Faz .....bump into Priya's mum! had some chit chat wit her then both of us headed over to Cynna ...then to LOFT ...... lol .....had our drinks and it was pretty sweet of that waiter there to give me a glass of ribena coz my tummy was feeling damn acidic that time ....

Bump into Ashley's sis! and her gang .... so i called Ashley and asked where is she... she went to Singapore ....swt...... lol

Met up wit the rest at Mojo ..... Omar opened bottle! ..... wahsai ... think tat fellow kena lottery or wat .... lol ..... yada yada ... shake our asses off then home sweet home .... was a damn tiring day man! .... but i had fun!!!

At Dome ....

Loving the deco at Morocco man

NadZ darling and I

Outside Loft ... inside was damn packed so we decided to sit outside to get a nice view around ... lol
taken by NadiaZ

Just got the pictures frm Jiar Jiar Binks! ... here you go ....

it was a candid shot by Jiar ... im not a poser alrite!

Jiar and I ... pretty shaky tho .....

LOL ... looking like a fool wit Alia .... busy doing our assigment

Alright ... tats all for now ... take care people! sayonara

2007-06-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

Pictures Update .....

Class today was trully boring ..... everyone was like so half dead and was about to fall asleep .... *yawns* ..... lol lucky us ... thanks to the invention of camera phones .... we basically took pictures the whole time at college today!!! lol

This was taken yesterday tho ... just got it frm Jiar

candid pic of me enjoying my teh o ice limao ... lol taken by Jiar

ciggie break! ... wit Alia and our backsides .... lol
lol its was all Alia's idea btw ... lol the camera man was Omar! lol

In class .... lol .... we r basically doing Visual Communication the whole time .... lol we communicate wit each other using the bluetooth at our cello ..... lol nonsense man

I love tis pic somehow! .... creation of Jiar Jiar Binks!!

After class at the coffee shop ... our usual hang out place

KKJ Girl! lol ... wit the compliment of Alia's ciggie ....

Daren the sakai and mua

lol cheese people!

Da guys .... stupid Omar and Faz ..... wat r u doin man?

And last but not least ... da girls!!

Just realised that actually there r 7 different races among the 8 of us! .... Alia is Malay+Chinese , Prema is Chindian , Jiar is Chinese+Thai , Daren is BabaNyoya , Faz is Malay , Omar is Malay+Chinese+Indian while Joshua and I are Chinese .... lol wat a great mixture of different culture and races man!

LOL ... alrite .... hav to get my butt off now to do my assigments .... till then!

2007-06-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

Updates ....

FINALLY!! ... finish doing my first tattoo using illustrator ... took me the whole evening man .... finally its done! ... one more to go!! ~weeeeeeeee

It was an awesome weekend for me I should say ... guess i shall start on last Friday instead .....

Friday ... college as usual .... got home around 7 and got myself prepared for yamcha wit Pillow and Chyi Junn! .... lol went over to OUG there at some cafe coz its the only place where Pillow can show me her laptop and teach me about Adobe ..... lol .... yada yada ... eat .eat ..... then got home around 11 plus .... thanks Pillow for everything!!!

Saturday .... Uncle Richard came and pick me up and both of us headed over to Imbi Plaza .... for wat? ... to get my laptop!!!! ..... coz Uncle Richard knows the person incharge there .. so managed to get some discount and of coz some other freebies as well .... lol .... guess i was the happiest girl alive man!

My new baby ......thanks mum and dad and of coz Uncle Richard! ... love u all

And lastly .... tested the webcam ..... damn clear wei! hell a lot better than ma stupid old web cam

jeng jeng jeng!

Oh yeah .... celebrated Omar's bday not long ago ... here a mug shot of da bday boy!

(Alia busy cutting da cake ... lol )

Got home around 4 something .... then started doing my assigments .... NadZ came around 6 something then headed over to FGA to pick Jack up .... then to Annie's place ....

Tat sakai NadZ .... doesnt like her outfit ... went all the way back to her place to change while Jack and Annie headed over to Lake Edge first .... lol

On our way ato Lake Edge ... NadZ missed the turning ... lol so ended up hav to u-turn back on the way to Putrajaya ... lucky we didnt end up there ok! lol

Got there around 8 ... met up wit many humans! including my old long lost pet bro Wai Seng! and not forgotten Pn Valsala ... my all time favourite teacher !... had a great time wit everyone there .... camwhored a lil ... then Kel Li asked me to take a few pictures wit her b4 she goes off .... lol

Eat n eat .... was eating non stop tat day man! ..... lol .... the speech by Jack was awesome! ... GOOD JOB PIN PIN !!! .... hehe

Alrite ... some pics below .....

Anna + Jack Jack

i looked like im farking pregnant in tis pic! WTF
highskool buddies ! .. heart all of them! ... wat r u doin la Tomas?

The fact tat Jack is leaving to OZ haven sunken in yet somehow .... we grew up together and our fwenship lasted till now .... 14 years and still counting .....

Jack .... i gonna miss u badly .... thanks for everything man .... ur one really true fwen ....take good care of urself aite! AND REMEMBER TO GET A HOT MAMA AT OZ! ...... lol ... god bless Jack .... thanks for bringing god into my life ...... and of coz thanks again for everything .......

Sunday .... went over to Uncle Richard's place wit dad .... lol its funny to see tat french dude mopping the floor wit his towel around his waist .... wakakakkaka!!! im pretty surprised tho to see how neat and lovely his place is! ....coz as i know he is staying wit Uncle Jack ... so i budget tat 2 busy man wont even hav the time to clean their crib ..... guess ma prediction was wrong .... lol

Uncle Richard then helped me wit my assigment.... and he showed me his proposal as well ... guess i need another 20 years to master tat man ....

While both of us were busy wit the coms ..... Uncle Jack , dad and Uncle Eric was busy in the kitchen preparing lunch! wat we had ? STEAMBOAT! ~weeeeee

And as expected .... Uncle Richard took out a huge ass bottle of Guiness Stout ....as usual ... i ran away ..... wakakakkakakakakaakka ... went on9 wit my laptop .....n started my assigment a lil .....

Got back around 5 something ..... lol its a great day i should say! .... especially wit those sakai people .......

Reached home ... mum got my a bag for the laptop and a necklace as well! ... love u mum !

Monday blues ....class today as usual .... bump into Nat! she looks great wit her new hairdo! lol ... class ended at 3 but Jiar Jiar , Alia , Daren and I stayed back to do our assigment at CR3 .... do n do .. until i wana puke .... gahhhhh ..... cant take it no more .... drove myself home sharp at 4.30 ......then continue wit the work till 11 something ..... damn tiring man! .... one more to go!TIUZ .... presentation one Thursday summore! DOUBLE TIUZ!..... class tomorrow at 9 .. will b going for breakfast wit those sakais as usual then ..... lol ... alrite ... tats all people!

Btw ... some pictures b4 i goes off ....

lol laugh la laugh ... enjoying my drink k! ...wit Jiar Jiar Binks! ... pic taken by Darren

Prema and Alia!

Alright .... till then .... ciao chee ~bye~

2007-06-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

Design tattoos?

Got my homework for Illustratin .... and guess what ? i have to design 2 tribal tattoo! bet i was the only one jumping around happily in the class .....wakakakakakak ..... tis is a real bomb man! ..... lol tattoos!!!

Dad told me tat i will have to design a logo for the company .... wit the initial of JKJ .... tats my only thing to do for the company for now till i graduate ..... aiyoh ... how to design la ..... if asked me to design tattoo then ok la ... now logo ..... sighhzzz

Pillow will help me out! lol ~weeeeee .... tis woman here hurt her ankle ..... she told me tat she cried like fuck when she went for the urut thingy around her place ..... sighh .... c la! volleyball summore!!! better get well soon aite !

Btw ...... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OMAR! , and of coz ... to the triplets as well ... Terence , Jeremy and EanZhe! .... have a great one there alright ... take care ... and best wishes to all of u! ... god blesss

2007-06-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

I wonder at times ....
When will I finally decide to wake up and move on .....
Leaving the pain behind and to convince myself ...
That it was only a dream ...

Sweet memories suppose to bring a smile to my face ..
Not pain nor tears down to my cheeks .....

Im still living my life with flashbacks of him no matter what ....
No matter where , when and why ....
His shadow stays with my all the time ....

When will I finally be awake from my dream?
Today or tomorrow? ....
Im only left with pain and a question with no anwer .....
But all I know for now is that .... time will tell .....

2007-06-19T23:22:00.001+08:00

9 minus 3 hours of class today ....

Woohooo ..... first day in class today .... finally get to meet some new friends! i shall say the whole class! .... lol ... since my class only got 14 people ... its pretty easy to get along wit them somehow .... so basically i got myself 12 new friends excluding me and Prema of coz ..... lol

I thought tat i wont be able to survive the 3 hours of lecture for each subjects .... but time really flies especially in class! ... and they are nice enough to give us 30 mins break for each subject .... lol

After 6 hours of class ..... we were told that the last class was canceled and was taken off from the time table ... yeahooooo!!!! so no more 9 hours of class!!!!

Got our first assigment for Research Method ..... lucky its a group assigment .... if not i will go mad for sure .....

After class ..... all went for yamcha again and to discuss our assigment ... so basically i went for like 5 yamchaing sessions today including b4 class and when Shaz gave me a visit since he was at KDU that time .....

LOL ....it was damn funny especially 3 of them , Alia , Omar and Fareez didnt taste chinese tea before .... lol and Alia said the taste is damn blunt and said they didnt put sugar in her tea .... lol my dear ... no one drink chinese tea wit sugar la .... she just got back to Malaysia not long ago ... tats y la ....

Really really glad that everything went well today! ... just a perfect way to start my sem off .... ~weeeeeeeee

2007-06-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

.... do you agree?

2007-06-18T17:53:00.000+08:00

First day at IACT .....

Orientation day today ..... went to SS2 around 8.15 in the morning tho the orientation only started at 10 ..... sounded real stupid ? lol .. coz i know i will b stuck at the Federal Highway for ages man on the way to college.... and i was right! ... 30 minutes in tat stupid highway ... and all i need is just to turn up to Kerinci Link ... like tat also 30 mins .... tiuz .....

Reached there around 9 ... and to get a parking is another problem ..... gahhhhh!!!! .... whole damn place was packed wit cars! ..... took me another 10 years just for a bloody parking .... tiuZ ..... Prema arrived after awhile then headed to the college .... 2 hours of orientation almost killed me ..... cant imagine tat i have to attend class tomorrow for 9 damn hours! WTF .....

Around 12.30 ... after yamcha at some nearby coffee shop .... went over to One Utama to shop shop for college .... ended up i bought a top instead.... wakakakakakkakakakakakakakakkaka ...... then went over to Wong Kok wit Prema to have some small bites to satisfy our hungryness while waiting for Pillow to come ....

Pillow came ... had our lunch .... yada yada ... till around 3.45 then off we went jalan jalan again ..... lol ..... bought some other stuffs (not for college) ... then home sweety home .....

Damn tired somehow ... and i really don know how to survive in tat 9 hours non stop class starting tomorrow at 9 in da morning ....dengz .......

Hope i wont kill myself tomorrow man ..... wish me luck people! and to Miss Pillow and Keeran ! yamcha soon k! needa destress myself .... headache liao ....

2007-06-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

To those people who loves to judge others ....

First of all ... yeah ... im a smoker ... i smoke, i drink, i go clubbing, i got my skin tattooed and pierced as well .... so? its not a big deal ..... y u people wana judge me like tat coz all i wanted is just to be myself?

Its pretty rude i should say when they started giving u that annoyed cb face when they saw u holding a ciggie at your hand .... WTF ... ello? u dont smoke ur problem ... i wana smoke its my problem ..... do u have a problem about it ?

Look at your own beloved daughter or son first b4 judging people like tat ... u think that they r an angel ar? kiss my ass man! ...... tiuz ......

I really really dont understand why people love to judge others? u think urself damn perfect izit now? ..... hello? no one is perfect alrite! .... at least im not doin drugs or fucking around wit guys ..... now tats even worse ......

Im pretty much pissed when they started talking cock lecturing u there ... u think im dumb izit? i know smoking kills man! ..... i wasnt born yesterday u morons .... but its my choice to light up tat ciggie ..... i choose to ok! .....

And staring at my tattoos wit tat cb face as well ... ello ? never c tattoo b4 izit now? .... just bcoz u r being a pussy and dont have the guts to get urself tattooed ... u don have to go around bitching to everyone tat im scarring my skin or im turning into a bitch .....

Wateverman .... im tired and pretty fed up wit it already ..... wana say watever u wana say la ... as long u r happy about it .... ~peace (^_^)v~

And lastly ... a pic to those assholes .....

FUCK U!

.. dont ever judge smokers or those people who got themself tattooed ..... we are not criminals ... we didnt kill ur dog or watever shit.... look at urself b4 judging others .....

2007-06-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

16th of June 2007 ...

Congrats to Aunt Sookie ! ..... she finally gave birth to a 48cm long and 3.45kg baby boy! .... just received her sms and she told me the good news about it! .... wooohooo!!! finally i got myself another cousin! ......

Tho the doctor told her tat the baby is suppose to be a baby girl ... she said that she was shocked when the baby peekaboo into this world ......lol summore the doctor said that her due is on the 8th which is my birthday ....but since the baby dont wana leave the mama's womb .... the doctor then have to induce her labour and force the baby out .... pityness man ....2 days of induction summore ..... sighh .....i think the doc got problem wan man .... his or her prediction are all WRONG! DENGZ!!!

She told me that she will name the baby Nathan! .... sexy and cute lil name for ma cute lil cousin ........

Now tats the way to start off my day! ..... IM HAPPY!!

Faster come back to KL k my dear spongebob aunt! .... me wana see the baby!! and of coz ... you as well .... take care and have fun to be a first time mum! ~weeeeeee

And ... IM EMPLOYED! WOOHOOOOOOO ..... tho i haven even start class for graphic design yet .... Uncle Richard's company wana employ me right after i finish my course for graphic design! now tats a real good news!

2007-06-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

Shopping + Shisha!.....

Jack came over to my place around 2 .... then picked NadiaZ up and headed over to Bangsar .... went to Bangsar Village then bump into Ashley Jane! .... yada yada .... shop shop around then headed over to Devi's for yamcha ....

After that .... 3 of us went over to Sg Wang! ...... since Isetan Sale started ! its shopping time baby! ....... 3 of us went gila ..... like never step into a mall before .... and i love the new collection from DKNY .... damn chun ! ....but of coz...the price also damn chun la!

Its an awesome retail therapy man! .... 3 of us was damn happy wit our purchases ... Jack got himself 2 pairs of pants and a top ... Nadia got herself a top and me? lol i got myself a purse ! finally .... a small purse where i can dump everything in it ... since i lost the one i bought it from MNG ... summore my bag is fucking small ... at last i can zip my bag man! woohooooooo

Dropped NadiaZ back and Jack's dad pick him up from my place ..... chilled awhile then picked NadiaZ up again and headed over to Hartamas , Uncle Dons to meet up wit Neresh and Ashley Jane ..... lol

Makan makan .... yada yada .... then Armaan came .... lol they played chor tai di and i watch them playing like sakais since i don wana make myself looking like a fool~im suck at it~.... lol Azreen and Elya was at Hartamas Square .... so NadiaZ went n gave them a visit ... after awhile ... i went to Square also .....

Yada yada .... then Zien , Roy , Neresh and Ashley came and joined us .... shisha again .... it was our second round for the nite ..... lol ... damn long never shisha d man! ... and mango flavour was a bomb!

Send NadiaZ back and here i am ... home sweet home.... lol

I had a great time man! ... laugh n laugh like a real sopo .... lol .... i had fun wit u guys man! .... c u guys again soon!

woohoooooooo

lol happy me!

tis is the coolest waffle man .... heart shape! i like!

Tho my feng shui was polluted while at Uncle Dons ..... didnt feel good all the time ... but its alrite! everything was great after that!

happy me!

Alright ... till then people! ciao chee!~bye~

2007-06-15T10:56:00.000+08:00

The Funeral of Heart ....

Finally ... class will be starting tis coming Monday .... hope i wont regret wit the course im about to take .. wont end up just like Alevels .... keeping my finger crossed that i wont end up like wat happen at TARC .... stupid college ...

Woke in the morning feeling pretty crappy somehow ... sense something was up .... then i realised that he came online last night when my server was down ... its already 3 months since i last spoken to him .....

Some mother fucking bitches and asshole went n spam my friendster's picture comment .... WTF ... i dont even know u people! and they aint speaking ENGLISH .... dunu wat kikilala ding dong chisin lala language is that! gahhhhhhh

Why people cant just leave other people to live their life in peace? .... WTF is wrong wit u people man! .... wana spam also spam la those u know ! .... I DONT EVEN KNOW U PEOPLE! TIUZ!

Finally got my fringe chopped .. all just happen after i got my passport picture taken ... i looked like a real hidious retard .... its pretty short now .... but at least ... i can c my face ! waaahaaaaa

Went over to Alexis last Tuesday wit Pillow and Keeran .... had my Meringue! now tats a real retail theraphy for me ! ~weeeeeeeeeeeeee and was at Hartamas Square on Wednesday wit NadiaZ , Ashley Jane , Neresh , Armaan and their fwens .... lol .... damn long never shisha already ... finally get to taste it again after sooo long ......

Pillow is busy wit her assigment lately ... lol .... and the best part she have to do research about lubricant! lol ... sadly i cant help her out .. i don even buy condoms ... lol wat abt lubricant? lol

I wonder how is Sze Mun doin at US ..... really really miss her badly .... hopefully everything will be alright for her .... b strong k babe! ... anything im always here for u .... tho we are miles apart ... but its only a phone call or sms away...

Btw ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRIYA! ... dont finish all the liquor at OZ k! lol .... faster find a hot n sexy hunk! hehe miss u too girl!

Finally ..... cant take it anymore ... my emo stage is rising up like a real bitch ..... bought a small lil pressie yesterday and hope it can put a smile back onto my face ....

santa is coming tonight .. lol nonsense me

lol finally found a ring that i like! ~weeeeeeeee .... but the smile only lasted awhile ... sighhhh

Im pretty lost la ..... dunu what else to do to b happy again .... another tattoo mayb?

the bang is back ... now i look like a small kid man!

2007-06-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

My Bday (Part 2)...

Just got the pictures from Uncle Richard! woohooooooo lol ... alrite la .. i will let the pictures do the talking this time ...

Daddy ... dedicating a song to me ...

Having our dinner ... wit Annie , Jack ,NadZ(where is she?) and my godpa! Uncle Zul Peace ... i know tis pic is damn slack

Godpa! ... looking as cute as ever .. lol
Thanks papa for the dinner

Me wit Bro Seelan ... lol the manager of Hapen
Uncle Eric wit Uncle Richard

Daddy wit Uncle Richard
Uncle Richard (thanks for the flowers!) and Uncle Jack (thanks for the Absolute Citron!)

wanted on the stage ... wit my bday cake! thanks daddy!
i looked like a bloody retard ... and i know tat lol
cut cake time!
posing wit the flowers given by Uncle Richard

*lost case* .. as usual la
daddy's girl ... love u daddy!
ma second shot ... Flaming Lamborgini!
lol ... Pillow looked damn syok sendiri somehow ... lol

showered wit love and gifts ... love u all .. thanks for making my day!

2007-06-11T13:13:00.000+08:00

UVNation ....

9th of June ...... its party time baby! ....... Prema came over to my place around 12 then we headed to the salon for some retail therapy ..... lol ... girls will always b girls ......

After that ... headed over to One Utama around 3 .... met up wit Hazel and Jason for yamcha .... lol .. thanks for the meal Jason! ... yada yada .... lol tat both sakais is damn funny man! .... really really had a great time laughing my cute lil bumm bumm off wit them!

Then met up wit Shaz and Scott at Starbucks .... lol .... yada yada ... took some pictures .... lol ...Scott is damn funny! .....guess if anything happen to me tat day must b bcoz of laughing overdoze man ...... wakakakkakakaakkkakakaka

Nadia then arrives wit Farid .... lol .... went over to the car to put her stuffs ... and .... lol had some Absolute Peach !!!! lol ... sadly no mixer tat time ... so we poured into our mouth just like tat ..... lol .... after that .... we headed up to the place .....

Neresh and Ashley was there! wooohoooo!!! .... bump into Kelli and Nat as well ... lol yay!!! .... yada yada awhile .... then Andrew and Armaan came ..... lol ..... got ourself the tag thing then headed over to Dave's .....for another session of boozes ..... lol ..... damn chisin man they all .... lol

After drinking ... headed over to the rave ...... omg man ... the amount of people .... i tot Speedzone was bad ... tis is worse! ...... kena squashed like sardin .... having a really really tough time searching for every single soul .... coz the place was damn dark .... gahhhhhhhhhhh

Sadly ..... they divided the place into 2 ..... one side playing R&B and another side playing Trance ........Benny was okok only la ... not the best from him ... after being pushed and squashed into the front ..... really really cant take it anymore .... the heat and the smell from some idiots b.o .... then we decided to head over to R&B section ....

OMG MAN ... it was hell a lot better!!!! ...tho its packed but at least i can breath .... lol ...... dance n dance till we went gila ..... Ashley can dance man! she rocked the party out awesomely .... lol

Went off around 2 something ..... dropped Nadia back then home sweet home ....

Tho the rave was okok only la ..... but i had fun wit all my buddies!!!! ... next rave !! im coming!!! woohooooo

Starbucks ....

wat the heck was i doin?

Scott

group pic ... slack la! again again!!

a lot better ....

i love tis pic somehoe .... lol wit NadZ darling ! inside the rave party n some booze behind us

Prema and NadZ .... lol manage to spot me? lol ....

Pic of the day! woohoooo wit my darlings partying our cute lil bumm bumms off ...

Still waiting for the pictures taken by Ashley ..... will update more when i get the pictures!!!!

2007-06-09T12:09:00.000+08:00

8th of June .....

It was my birthday! ..... saddening .... im officially 20 years old now man ..... lol

My day was great! ..... went for breakfast wit mum and both sis at Dome's... then lunch wit Edison and Prema at Chillis...... all happened at Midvalley .... lol ...... had a great time yada yadaing wit them .... lol ..... after that .... Edison my son dropped me and Prema off to Bangsar .......

Tea time at Nirvanas ..... then got back home around 5 something ...... got myself prepared .....then Annie and Jack arrived around 6 ...... yada yada there ..... then Nadia came ..... Nadia and Annie drove down to KL ... went over to Hapen for dinner .... dad , Uncle Zul , Uncle Richard and everyone was there also .... lol ..... suddenly .... i was called to the stage .... saw a bday cake there .... and of coz my FLAMING LABORGINI!! lol woohooo .... basically the whole bistro sang the bday song .... lol ...... Uncle Richard gave my flowers and Uncle Jack got me a bottle of Absolute Citrus!!!! .... went back to the table .... yada yada ... then Pillow came .... had my second Flaming Lamborgini then off we headed to Asian Heritage ......

Sat our bumm bumms at Morocco ... i like that place coz its damn cozy and full wit pillows!! .... since the rave party is the next day ..... don feel like clubbing somehow .... lol .... Bang , Bing and Michelle came after awhile! .... yada yada .... then Shaz and Kev arrives ...... take some pics wit Shaz's new cam .... then Dik came ..... woohooo my babi! ..... after awhile May Lynn arrives wit Rei ..... yada yada ..... drink drink ... then Keeran and Chun Boon arrives ..... lol another 2 of my sakais ....

Annie ordered a drink wit a pretty weird name .... Pussy Foot! .... lol had a great time laughing at tat name .... sounded like Pet Pet drink!!!

Nadiaz dropped me back home .... luckily i wasnt drunk at all .... lol .... i really really had a great time wit everyone that night!!!!!

Really really wanna thank everyone for those lovely gifts , cards and their wishes ..... friends from overseas also took the iniciative to wish me .... lol really really appreciate it!

Alright .... thats all then ! IM OFFICIALLY 20 NOW!!

Annie and Jack

Keeran and Chun Boon
Dik , me and Michie

Kev , Jack and Annie !

Shaz and Kev
Michie , Bang and Bing ... i know u got new phone la Bang .... lol

lol i looked like a retard .... lol wit Pillow

Me , Pillow and NadZ

Last group pic .... lol

Thanks everyone for coming and accompaning me the whole nite! ..... more pics to come pretty soon ... all wit Uncle Richard ..... lol till then! ciao chee~ *bye*

2007-06-07T15:58:00.001+08:00

7 Shopping Malls in a day ....WTF

The plan was actually to go to IACT to register then to One-U to get the rave tickets .... till Prema told me that the college needed some other stuffs which im not much aware off ... so basically im unprepared ..... gahhhhh .....

Then Shaz called me and asked me to go out wit him .... so i gave in ..... he came with Jack to my place around 11.15 ... then off we headed over to Mont Kiara to pick up Kuok!!!!! he is back from the states!!! woohoooo ..... he got his hair cut the day b4 ... but its not the one i asked him to! eish eish ... nvm that ... he looks good wit his new hairdo btw .... lol

Then all 4 of us headed over to One Utama ..... met up wit Prema .... got the rave tickets ... walk walk around .... then had our lunch at The Chicken Rice Shop ... of coz ... the compliment of Jack's mum ....thanks aunty! ......

After that ..... 5 of us headed over to The Curve ..... they finally got their donuts from Big Apple ..... then walk walk around .....

Dropped Kuck back while Prema was still at The Curve while waiting for her mum to pick her up .... 3 of us headed over to Sg Wang ..... then to Low Yatt ..... then to KL Plaza .... then to Lot 10 ...... walk untill my leg also wana patah ......

Then headed over to Pertama Complex coz Shaz wana buy his camera ......tat place is real scary to me man ..... lol

Finally bought the camera .... then headed over to Neelas for dinner..... at last! ... 3 of us was starving that time ..... lol

Yada yada ... then headed home around 9.30 ....... lol

Its a pretty long day i should say .... lol but i had fun!

2007-06-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

Sg Wang + Hapen + Concorde Hotel ....

Was out wit Pillow today to Sg Wang ..... had our lunch at U-Village .... then walk walk and shop shop around ..... she bought a damn cute lil penguin necklace! lol ..... then walk walk again ....bought a necklace for my sis .... then yamcha at somewhere i forgot wats the name .... lol

Then she wana visit her friend at Zoo ... the tattoo shop .... then only i found out that she knows Frankie .... lol 3 of us yada yada there till 8 something .... lol ... we didnt realised tat it was so late already! ... ended up the parking there cost us 11 bucks ! BLOODY POO.....

Then headed over to Hapen .... omg ! my godpa was there!! gave him a hug then yada yada there ..... after that ... all hopped into dad's car and off we went to Concorde Hotel ... it was Uncle Jack's birthday! and another fwens bday also! lol .... sang tat bday song ..... yada yada ... had Dry Gin! woohooooo!!! ....

LOL i realised that most of them cant take Gin .... lmfao ... dad was pretty drunk .... Pillow ended up puking ..... Uncle Zul started talking there non stop ..... Bro Richard's face was damn red .... Uncle Jack was pretty ok ok la ..... lol it was a damn sakai night ever .... lol

I drove back in the end ..... and im glad tat Chyi Junn just smsed me ... telling me tat Pillow just got back and damn blur blur now .... lol ....... first time i c Pillow drink until like tat ...... swt ...

But no matter what ... its another awesome day today ... i had fun ! especially wit Pillow!

Pillow and I at Concorde Hotel ... posing wit her new necklace ... lol sakainess

Uncle Jack .. the bday boy on stage singing !

Wat r u doin daddy? lol

Bday gurl turned 19 today! lol

LOL ... damn a lot of people's bday man ..... especially tis month .... 1st was Zien ... 5th is Sze Mun , Uncle Jack ........ 6th is Daphne ...... 8th is me! and Andrew ...... 9th is Chyi Junn ..... 14th is Priya ..... aiyoh .......

So Happy Birthday to all of u people! *cheers!*

2007-06-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

Outting at Bangsar ...

Just got back from Bangsar ..... lol .... Pillow said she is bored so we decided to go yamcha ..... asked Keeran along ..... lol ... reached his place then off we headed over to Wee Boon's place first coz tat fellow didnt pick up Keeran's call ... then only we found out that he is at Singapore ..... lmfao! ... called Chun Boon and tat fellow was at Puchong that time .... lol pity his house .... heard it was a huge mess after that washing machine blew off or something ... his whole kitchen was flooded! ... aisehman!

Then 3 of us headed over to 11.15 for a drink .... tat stupid Keeran killed my drink ok! ... he went n pour some beers into my Gin Tonic! .....gahhhh ....... lol but i did took some revenge by pouring it all into his glass ... wakakakkakakakakaka

Yada yada there then both of them wanted to play pool ... sadly the tables there are all fully occupied .... so we headed to Devi's instead since Pillow was hungry at that time ... ordered her tosai n Keeran wit his satays .... yada yada there ... kena laughed there like mad coz i don know how to cook .... lol .... too bad la ... just not into cooking ok ..... swt

Got back home around 12 .... dad was already asleep ! ... cannot kacau him d ..... dengz! lol

Gonna rest tomorrow then have to go over to IACT tis coming Wednesday ......

Oh yeah ... its already 1.40 in the morning! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE MUN! .... LOVE U DEAR AND I MISS U MAN! .....

Noticed any difference? lol .... i finally removed all my extensions ..... bored and tired of it already ... after all those pressures and being annoyed for the pass 2 months .... its finally gone ..... =P

2007-06-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

The Old Grandpa Clock ....

Well .... it all started when Aunt Amber brought back an old clock from dont know where ... its black in colour and its about 6ft tall ..... and she filed for a divorce wit her husband not long after that and of coz she got the custody of their son , Dodi....

Because of that .... she sold her condo and found a new home .... but sadly she have to put the old clock behind .....so my family decided to buy it over and also to help her out in her financial situation .....

After awhile since the old clock was at my place .... things start to happen .... to those who r close to me should know wat happened to my family .... then we shifted to taman desa and abandoned many stuffs in the old house including tat old coocoo clock ....

Till recently .... dad went back to the old house wit Uncle Richard to move away some stuffs ..... then Uncle Richard was kinda interested in tat clock .... so dad asked him to take it since there is not room left for tat clock in my new place .....

2 days after that ... i was told that Uncle Richard's car was stolen together wit tat clock and he was down with high fever for almost a week .... swt .... now tat's a real scary old clock man! O.O

2007-06-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Finally ...

Sis was discharged today morning ..... woohooo .... at last! its home sweet home for her ...... and of coz ... she dont have to suffer anymore now ... hehe ... but still have to bring her for check up next monday ...... think by that time the doctor will remove the stitches then ...... really really glad tat its finally over ....

Been glued to channel 77 lately ... Discovery Home and Health ....many touching stories .... from the girl who lost her voice box to 21 year old baby ..... its pretty pretty sad to see people suffering coz i think everyone deserve a normal life like we do have ....

Guess its a pretty good way to open up my eyes to be greatfull wit what i have now ....coz all they wanted is just a normal life wit a normal lifestyle tat we are goin thru every single day every single hour and minute ..... sighh ... life is really really unfair .....

And to those people who complain everytime about their life and bla bla will trully deserve a slap from me .... look at them b4 u talk ! .... their problem is 1 mil times worse than yours ..... so shut up!

LOL ..... asked Chun Boon about Sky Bar .... he said no cover charge! lol woohoooo! now im relief! ..... yaynesss ..... next week should be a pretty busy week for me .... from registering into IACT , get my rave tickets , appointment for sis , party! and so on ... lol cant wait! been rotting at home lately or spend most of my time in the hospital .... lol till then! ciao chee! ....*bye* ..... -runs away-

2007-06-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

Surgery ... h

Sis's operation went well ..... tho it took about 3 hours to remove the thing .... but everyone was glad that it went smoothly ......

While waiting for her near the operating theater ..... the Maternity ward is just nearby .... grab mum and sis wit me to see ... of coz .... babies!!!

I went crazy when i saw 4 cute lil small babies there ..... omg man ... feels like pinching and grabbing them ....... got one really really caught my attention ... its a baby boy! and he weight 4.1kg! now thats a really really chubby baby!

OMG! ..... he is the cutest thing alive man!

LOL ..... when he started crying there ....

Cant help it la ... i love small kids and babies! .... i wonder how he will be when he grow up?

Just got back from Kah Hong's birthday party btw ...... lol everyone was there! ... including Chin Lung , Tomas , Arthur , Donald , Abner ,Siew Ling , Yen Mie , Min Hwa , Pei Voon , Pei Chen , Mei Ling and many more! .... never c them for almost 3 years already .... time really really flies!.... had Absolute Peach! its damn nice!.... gonna ask daddy to get it for me! woohooooo......Hoon Jiang drank until his face turned until damn red! furthermore his skin is flawless ... looks like he just applied some foundation and blusher ..... lol ... and Happy Belated Birthday Kah Hong!

Managed to chat wit Sonia ... saw her tattoo! lol awesome! ..... and her new hairdo fits her perfectly as well ... goshh ... i really really miss my highskool days man!

Oh yeah! ... Sze Mun smsed me earlier! ...... was damn happy to c her sms! .... she told me that she is on her way to catch a flight to Florida .....and of coz ... for Disneyland and Universal Studio! ... i wana go also =( .... hehehehe ... u have fun aite my dear! miss u dearly!

Pillow is sick btw ... lol suppose to go for dinner wit her n Keeran ... guess we have to call it off and postpone it to next week ! ... take good care of urself man u sakai! .... n go out less especially when u r sick !

Its a pretty long day i should say ..... but at least im happy! =)

2007-05-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

Shopping Spree wit Mummy!

Its an awesome day today i should say ..... went shopping wit mum and both sis .... ended up i got myself a whole outfit! .... a pair of shorts , a reversable spagetti top and pumps! .... lol thanks a lot mum ... love u!

Sis will have to undergo surgery tomorrow morning ...... hope everything will turns well for her ...... and hope i don have to overnite in the hospital wit her! then i can go for dinner wit Pillow and Keeran and drinking at Kah Hong's place ..... woohoooo!!!

Well ... i don understand wats in some people's brain at times ..... stuffs that they do is just frustrating , annoying and pisting me off to the max .... watever la ... as if i care btw ...... gahh ....

2007-05-30T17:17:00.000+08:00

Asia Cafe + Sunway !

Was out wit Jack today! ......fetch him then off we headed to Subang .... had lunch at Asia Cafe then went over to Sunway Piramid for shopping!!!

Walk into every single shop ... but cant get the things i wan! ... its either too expensive or the cutting is just bad bad bad .... damn saddening!

Yamcha at Kim Gary ......bump into someone that i wont wana see till i take my last breath ..... wat a day! of all places! gahhhhhhhh ... spoil my ying and yang only ...... dengz! ....... nevermind la ... as long she is happy ......

Then Jack and i went jalan jalan again ..... till i gave up ..... lol .... damn man ....

But i had fun wit Ah Pin! lol ..... thanks a lot wei ...... c u soon!

Jack Jack at Kim Gary

2007-05-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hapen!

Just got back from Hapen! .... it all started when Pillow asked me to yamcha wit her ... never see her for a week liao! so i gave in ... she came around 9 ... then suddenly she said she wana drink .... so i asked her to go to Hapen wit me .....

Met up wit daddy , Uncle Eric and all there .... and started la! ... that girl started drinking like a cow wit everyone there! lol ... i don know how many glass she downed ..... from debating wit my dad about tattoo till cracking up many hilarious jokes ...... lol it was a real crazy nite!

Had an awesome time ! ..... i laugh n laugh till my bladder also wana pecah .. and tat reminds me .. i shall go to the loo to pee pee now! lol

Till then! ..... ciao!

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OMFG! ... HOPE THEY SHOW IT HERE!!! keeping my finger crossed!!!

And tis reminds me that i found tis pic at BME not long ago ....

LMFAO! .... WAT A CUTE LIL KITTY!

2007-05-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

Monday ....

Headed to the hospital wit mum and both sis ...sis have to go for her 2nd surgery tis coming Friday morning ... keeping my finger crossed that everything will be alrite for her ...

Came back around 4 then Aunt Molly came wit Jack , lil Kevin and her friend ... where did we go? lol Ikea! ..... makan at the Ikea's food court ...then walk walk around ... Aunt Molly wana shop for her new house ... so Kevin and I went hyper ... ran here and there wit tat small kid ... lol he is only 8 btw ..... lol

Taught him a few stuffs ... like how to meassure ... to know the difference between cm and inches to diameters ..... lol he told me tat his teacher haven even teach him those yet ... but he was really smart to catch up everything in one day!

After that ... went over to The Curve and had our dinner at Marche .... lol another great time for me and Kevin to run here and there ... wakakakakkakakakakakkakaa

The best part ... the staff there gave him free ice cream! ... and i learned my lesson that never give a kid either ice cream or something sweet ... he went even hyper after that! gosh. .... Jack and I having a hard time to keep him undercontrol ....

Came back around 10 ... and i had fun especially wit Kevin!

tis is Kevin .... picture taken last year .... sorry Jack .. havta curi tis pic from u! lol

2007-05-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Michelle! ...

It was a long day last Saturday ...... was out the whole day ! ....... Lynn and Nic abducted me in the morning to go to MV wit them ...... lol ..... then to Subang ........half way to the airport due to the jam and Lynn took the wrong turning .... we cant manage to head to the airport in time .... then went over to Sunway to pick Matthew up ... then to Petaling Street ..... had wantan mee!! yummy!!! ...... then walk walk ... till my leg also wana patah .......

Came back around 6 then rest awhile .... around 7 ..... headed over to Bangsar to meet up wit Prema then to Monte's! ...........

Tho Michelle's birthday was last Friday .... but we celebrated on the Saturday instead ..... lol its damn funny coz the twins actually tot it was at Bangsar Village! ..... lol ... waited for them then headed into the restaurant ....

Bing Loon , Nisa and all was there ...... then yada yada .... had a great time laughing my ass off wit them ...... and how can Bing Loon tot Prema and I on drugs? wat nonsense is that man! nonsense u Bang Loon!

The best part was when the cake arrives .... dunu wat candle was tat .... blow n blow also cant put it off ... ended up have to use a cup of water to put it off ..... lol we eventually make the whole place damn smokey ! lol sakainess man!!

After dinner .... headed over to The School ... aka 11.15 ... lol b4 u guys tot i really headed back to my skool ...... lol ........

Romeo came! lol the last time i saw him was tat nite at rave! lol ... had another great time laughing wit everyone there ...... lol all damn sakai !

Had a great time wit them! .... im happy! =)

Prema and I

Bang and Bing Loon

with my bum buddies!

lol dunu y i looked damn happy here ..... candid shot by Michelle

another sakai ..... Bang posing wit his meal ..... lol
Bday Cake! ..... and nonsense candles

what r u doin la Michelle?
Mich and her cake ... wit Nisa beside her

i love tis pic!

group pic!

wait ... something is missing ...

lol .... now better! .... bday girl wit her bday hat!

outside Monte's
and those wearing black that nite ....

Again .... Happy Birthday Michelle! someone is old now .... wakakakakkaka!!

2007-05-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

Glam Rock Charm Necklace....

Few months back .... i stumble across tis lovely necklace at Diva , One Utama ..... looked at the price ..... 106 bucks man!!! ..... coz the wings necklace already cost more than 1k ..... so i decided to forgo it ........

Today ...... i went back to Diva wit mum and both sis ... to my surprise ..... i saw that necklace again! and guess what!! its 21 bucks only now!!! WTF!!!!!!

Mum bought it for me .... lol im the happiest girl alive!!!

Bling bling

The price b4 reduction

WTF! after their reduction!!

LOL happy me!!!!

2007-05-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

At Sze Mun aka Mushroomgal's Crib .....

It was Lynn and Sze Mun's idea to go over to Sze Mun's crib the nite b4 she goes off ..... so i dragged NadiaZ and Steph along .....

Picked Steph up and headed over to Bakeroni for dinner ... then NadZ came and joined us ...... then met up wit Lynn and Nic at Jalan Mega Mendung there ..... all went into Nic's car then off we headed over to Sze Mun's place ......

Not that im lazy to drive ... just that the way to her place is damn complicated! furthermore im half blind especially at nite ....

Reached Sze Mun's place then all headed over to her room ..... Sam was playing the com that time ... so i managed to chat wit her b4 she goes off wit her sis to US .....

Suddenly Sze Mun went to the kitchen and came back wit a bottle of Moet and Chandon!!! pick colour wan summore!!! yahoooo!!!! ..... all started drinking and all went gila in the end .... kakakakakakakakka

From camwhoring to laughing my ass off wit her old high skool mag .... its damn funny to see him when he was young!!! kkakakakakakak and of coz .... Sze Mun as well!!! lol .....

Lynn and Nic bought her something .... and guess wats tat? MUSHROOM SLIPPER!!!lol i was laughing madly that time ... coz i bought a mushroom necklace for tat sakai as well .... kakakakakakaka

Yada yada there ..... till 12 something then home sweet home ....

Hav a good journey aite babe! ..... missing u badly now already .. =(

damn nice ! ... can c Lynn's phone and tat mushroom slipper!

Steph , me , mushroom and NadZ

girls will always b girls

mana tu Lynn and Nic?

sakai girl was damn hyper wit her mushroom slipper ...lol

i think i shall call her tomato girl instead of mushroomgal la .... lol ....

Guess ya reach Taiwan liao ...... hav fun wit those smelly taufu there babe! love u!

2007-05-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

Dear Sze Mun ,

Tho u will be leaving tis coming Sat .... but tis post is all for u babe! so u can c b4 u go off to US..

Thanks for being such a great friend to me babe ! ..... tho i know u thru him ... but its all good! .... still remember the first day i know u ..... that time was at Mcd , Bangsar .... we didnt really talk much that day but guess its fated for me to have such a good friend like u!

You taught me damn a lot of things ...... u even bring me up when i was falling apart .... u were there for me all the time when i needed someone ... of coz ... i wont know wat i will do if u arent by my side when i need a shoulder to cry on .....

From bringing me indulging myself wit good food to clubbing .... not to mention our odd hour movie ,karaoke , pool and morning bak kut teh! .... every single moment will be much cherished .....

I know a lot of people from u as well .... and of coz! my circle of fwens expended hell a lot ....

Tho u will be leaving this coming Sat ..... surely miss u dearly girl ....... best wishes for u k babe! .... as i know our fwenship will b preserved no matter what tho we will be miles apart .... just like the bracelet we bought together at OU .....it will b a token of our fwenship for sure......

Thanks for everything babe ..... u are a trully one good friend that everyone would love to have ! ..... hope to see u again soon ..... tho we wont know when will it be .....

No matter what .... i love u dear! .... and no worries ... i will try to get over it asap! and smoke less as well!!! kakakakakakaakakakkaakaka ...

p/s - hope u can get a mata sepet dude at US! .... love u dear

2007-05-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

Pasar Malam + Pirates!

Went over to Connaught yesterday wit Jack , Annie and Sze Mun for pasar malam! wohoooo!!!!!

Jack came and picked Sze Mun and me up around 5 something ... then almost got ourself lost while on our way to Cheras ... kakakakkakakkkaka

Place was damn hot! sweating like a pig! .... the first stall we stopped at was ..... SMELLY TAUFU .....*BLUEK!* .....CANT BELIEVE THAT ANNIE ACTUALLY ENJOYED IT WIT TAT SAKAI SZE MUN! ..... gahhhhhhhhhhhh

We eventually sapu almost all the food there man ...... lol from one stall to another ...... lol

Then Jack dropped me and Sze Mun back to my place .... got ourself ready then headed over to Lynn's place ......... lol its fun to see Sze Mun syok sendiri there wit the tea set thing .....kakakakakakkaakakkaka .... after that , headed over to MV .... picked up the tickets for pirates! then went for pool .....

All i can say is that my skills is getting better ! and Sze Mun! ur just lucky ok! lol evilness me ......

Jenn and his gang came ... just in time for the movie which is 12am ...... and that sakai .... lol ..... was having a hard time trying not to laugh when he did that cycling thing ....... sakaiest person ever! lol ....... movie over around 3 in the morning ..... and all i can say is .... MUST WATCH! awesome movie man!!!

After movie ...... was at the carpark wit Sze Mun and Jenn ..... as usual ..... its smoking time! .... lol let him tried that LA Lights ...... kakakakakakkakaakk

Was dead tired .... but woke up around 9 in the morning today ..... picked Larnie up then send Sam to college ..... then 3 of us headed over to Klang for Bak Kut Teh! .... lol not bad wei! minus that burning plastic smell ..........

Then around 1 something ..... picked Sam up from college ......then home sweet home .....

Im damn fucking tired man! .... but it was all worth it especially wit my sakai Sze Mun! lol

In Jack's car ... on the way to pasar malam!

smelly taufu ....*runs away*

Annie ..... having her first bite of that smelly taufu which smells like shits ..... gahhhhh
And of coz ...... Sze Mun enjoying herself wit Annie .......

LOL .... all damn sakai .... see you tomorrow sakai!

2007-05-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

Neway.....

Sorry about my dissapearance ... was sick for the whole week .... down wit high fever .... kakakakak .... glad im alrite now ...

A week after Poppy .... been going out wit Nadia .... since she is back! wohooo!! from One U (where i bump into Lina my beloved mama) to Hartamas .....then to KL....

Talk about KL ..... sis was having her IU Day at Federal Hotel ... so Nadia and I popped by to give them a visit .... Pn Ti was damn happy when she saw us! she even hugged me ..... hehe .... miss those skool days .....

Yesterday .... went to MV awhile to meet up wit Prema .... then bump into Zien .... yada yada till Sze Mun arrives ....... after that we headed over to Time Square to meet up wit Pillow .... for wat? KARAOKE!!!! hohohohohoohohohoho

Damn... tis both Sze Mun and pillow damn berjiwang the whole time .... lol ... then Pillow's sis came .......sing song there till 3 then headed over to Sg Wang since Sze Mun wanna get her hair cut .....

Walk walk around then wit Prema .... and finally bought a pair of flip flop for myself since my slipper koyak already ... =(

Then headed over to Pudu for our long time fav ..... fried ...errr .... dunu wat izit called .... lol ......n tat stupid chicken feet took us ages to chew .... gahhhh ...... went off around 7 then dropped Prema to MV .... then headed over to Bangsar for yamcha ....

We went to Alexis ... for wat? Meringue!!!! ..... after makaning and yada yada ... Lynn , Nic and Keeran came after awhile .... yada yada there till 11 then home sweet home .....

It was a great day i should say! ...happy me!

Prema ..... berjiwang wit the mic lol

LOL .... wat r u doin la Pillow?
damn semangat man tis both sakais!

Last pic for the day .... Prema and I

Oh yeah .... b4 i forget ..... Sze Mun got me 2 packs of ciggies from Bali!

Esse and Karelia <3

Of coz ... it tasted hell a lot better than LA Light ..... kakakakakka thanks dear! love u!

2007-05-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Poppy ....

Went yamcha at Neelas with Sze Mun and Wen Dee .... then headed back home to get ready for our nite life! hohoness ..... Wen Dee came after awhile .... Sze Mun was busy putting make up that time .... lol ....... then Pillow came ....

Wen Dee drove that night ..... first headed over to Traders Hotel to pick Chun Boon up then headed over to Poppy ! ....... somehow .... tho the age limit to enter is 21 .... they managed to sneaked me in ...... sakainesss!!!

All I can say is that Poppy is pretty different compared wit some other clubs .... better crowd and very relaxing enviroment .......

Had Absolute Vodka .... yummy ..... lol ..... Andrew came then around 11 something ..... realised that i cant mix drinks ...... due to that .... i ended up piss drunk and started talking cock the whole nite .... kakakkkakakaaka!!! thanks to Andrew and his Long Island Tea ....... swt.......

Really really greatful to have them accompaning me the whole time ...... coz i wasnt in the mood somehow after wat Chun Boon told me ......... sighhhhh .....

Went off around 2 then headed to the nearest mamak ........ sadly they didnt allow me to sleep in the car instead .... sad la! all forced me to come with them ......

Then dropped Chun Boon back to Traders coz his car was there ... then headed home ........

It was the sakaiest night ever! lol i trully had a blast with them!

Poppy

Our table ... cant remember wat was Pillow doing ... lol
Da girls ... Sze Mun , Pillow , Me and Wen Dee

Me , Chun Boon and Pillowlol .... sakai la
Wen Dee and I
Sze Mun and I

where the sakainess started
lol ... i know im always being loved .... kkakaaakak... stupid Boon wit his middle finger!
told cha!
lol .... tis is the effect after too much of alcohols .... lol

LOL .... really really had a great time wit them! .... karaoke soon k! hohonesss

2007-05-10T02:37:00.000+08:00

Bak Kut Teh + Flat Tyre Day ......

Woke up around 7 in the morning ... for wat? for Bak Kut Teh! lol ..... Prema came around 9 then went over to Abadi to fetch Ben , Isa , Donald and Dino .... lol all pork eater ..... kakakakakak

Met up wit Kah Hong at Fitris .... waited awhile coz i was told that 3 more pork eaters will b coming to join us ..... lol ...... basically 3 cars full loads of people who woke up early in the morning for Bak Kut Teh ..... lol

Followed Kah Hong's car coz i don know where izit ..... hehe ..... the traffic wasnt that bad tho ... suprisingly ......

LOL ..... reached Jalan Imbi ... where that Bak Kut Teh shop is ...... yada yada n when the pot arrives ..... Ben was like the happiest man alive i tell u ... due to his puasa at Cherating for almost 4 months without pork ..... kakakakakakakakakaka

Then went off wit Prema and Ben to Time Square ...... suddenly ..... i felt something was wrong wit the car when i was finding for parking at the parking lot there .... then we realised that one of the tyre punctured .... sadness!!

Ben then called Kah Hong to come and rescue us .... lol ... by the time he , Donald and Dino arrived .... Ben already got his hands dirty changing he tyre for me ..... lol

Really really greatfull that Ben was there that time ... if not ....

Bang then came and joined us ... then Chin Lung came as well ... lol .... we went from one place to another and the same routine repeated again and again ...from Sg Wang to Low Yatt .... then Sg Wang ... me and Prema was dead tired ... so we went back to Time Square n rest our asses at Dome while the guys continue shopping .... lol first time .... guys r more into shopping than girls .... kakakakaakakaka

Isa came and joined us at Dome ..... after awhile .. the guys came over ... yada yada there then we headed back to Taman Desa .....while Bang took the train back to his place ....

Bang then smsed me .... telling me that he will b meeting up wit Ben again for yamcha at TD ....alright ... since i got nothing to do lol .... he came and picked me and Prema up from my place then we headed over to Abadi to pick Ben up ....

Where did we went? ... Fitris again .... swt .... lol ....as usual ... all of us having a great time laughing at every single damn thing ...haha .... it was a great day i should say ....

Bang dropped me back then ....hehe thanks babi!

Pity my small lil ding dong car .....

LOL ..... too bad i don know how to change a tyre ....and lucky Ben was there that time

Ben getting his hands dirty ..... lol Prema helped him out as well ....

Group pic ..... Prema , Me , Bang ,Lung and Isa at Dome , Time Square

Another group pic ... Ben , Me , Bang ,Lung and Isa

Sadly .... Ben will be going back tis coming Saturday ...... for how long? 6 months tis time! ... i will miss him badly for sure ......

2007-05-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

A lil updates ...

Thursday ::

Went over to One Utama wit Steph ... had lunch at some place which looks like Kim Gary ..... yada yada there .... got myself pist over some stuffs ... all just because of some immature thinking yet perasanted people .... u know wat? WATEVER!..... then headed to Toko and found my miracle! *jumps around*

Finally found the other side of the wings which i have currently ..... omg mannn ..... i was the happiest girl alive! ...sadly ... didnt bring enough cash tat time ... but the owner is kind enough to reserve it for me after putting 10 bucks as a deposit .... lol

Camwhored in the toilet ... lol realised tat Steph's nail colour suits my top!
Yamchaing at Burger King

Friday ::

Went for lunch wit Sze Mun and her primary schoolmates at Time Square ... then movie wit her at Midvalley ......of coz ... for Spiderman 3 ..... a bit too long i should say ... sit until buttsore liao ...... sobz sobzness

Then pasar malam at Taman Desa and then to Keeran's place then yachaing at Asia Cafe ...... lol it was a crazy day ..... i was dead tired when i got home ..... lol but i had fun! hohohohoohohohoho!

Wen Dee and I at Asia Cafe

Saturday ::

Mum dragged me to shop shop wit her at MV ...... she wanted to buy some stuffs to deco the house a lil .......and of coz .... she got me a bag from Guess!!! lol im the happiest girl alive !!!

Hahahahaha ....... walk walk around .... she got herself some stuffs as well .... it was a great mother and daughter day tat day ....... hehe love u mum

Dad went to Kedah in the morning ... will be back on Sunday !

Thanks mum ! love u!

Sunday ::

Went over to One Utama wit mum and both sis ... lol .... shop shop .... Kar Mun bought some clothes for her upcoming school event and of coz ..... i managed to sneak myself to Toko to get my wings! hohohohoohohohoho

Both sis is kind enough to chip in for tat wing ....... hehe love u both monkeys!!

Dad came back around 12 something in the morning .....and of coz .. he got me something from Kedah as well !!!! lol love u daddyyy!!!!

Finally ..... found the other half ... its complete now! ...... im loving it!

LOL ..... tis is why i love my dad soo much ...... one carton of my fav ciggies!!!

It was a great weekend i should say ..... im the happiest girl alive now!

:: cheeseee::

2007-05-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Me! =)

Just received an email from my uncle at Birmingham ..... he said tat my cousin , David asked him to send me a picture of him wit his snowman .... lol

Gosh ... I didnt see them for ages already ..... really really miss them a lot ....

Their beautiful home .... i love snowing!

And of coz .... cousin David smiling happily there wit his snowman .... lol

Time flies man .... David is soo tall now ..... hehe ... thanks Uncle Colin , Aunt Janet and David !....hehe hope will see u guys pretty soon .... take care ....

2007-05-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

Modesto + Laundry Bar ....

Went over to Modesto at Hartamas wit Steph last Saturday ...... got Chelsea match tat nite ... so her parents booked the place there i think? lol ....

Picked her up and joined her parents there ..... everyone was damn syok while i enjoyed looking at them all the time especially when Chelsea scored ..... lol!!!

After that .... went over to The Curve .. shop shop awhile at the Bazaar Market and joined Hazel n gang after that at Laundry Bar .....

That nite was one of her fwens bday as well .. so we celebrated together gether wit her fwen's fwens .... lol

It was great meeting up wit them especially Hazel ... and tho i sux in pics tat nite ... stupid flash.... but i had fun ! hehe .... yamcha again soon k babe!

Birthday girl wit her Flaming Lamborgini

Steph , Hazel , her fwen and I ...... i look damn sucky man!

LOL ..... laugh la laugh .... i know my eyes damn sepet .... watever!!!!

2007-04-30T12:14:00.000+08:00

Fav Pics ..... Y

Was cleaning up all of the files ... rearranging and recategorize all of them ..... then came across these few pictures that i trully like ...

LOL who is tis girl beside me? Steph la! lol
During my bday last year at Modesto .... really really miss those daysFirst time smiling wit my teeth showing Both sis and i

Yeah its him ..... time flies man .....and i miss him still

Christmas ....at The Curve ... love the blue!

Sis and I at Damai beach , Sarawak
Sze Mun and I at Luna Bar ..... love u gurl!
Last but not least ..... Prema , Steph and I .... lol

Time really flies man ..... realised that my com is bacially full wit pictures! flash back of many sweet memories ..... the good and the bad .... i wonder what will happen in the future .... wat kinda picture will then be categorized by me as my fav pictures?

2007-04-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

edit :: Happy Birthday Kar Mun!

haha ... sorry people ..... files r like everywhere .... forgotten to upload these few pictures for my previous post ... lol

alright ...tats all ..... *winks*

2007-04-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Kar Mun!Y

27th of April , my lil sis turned 13 .... time realy flies mannn .....

As usual ... its a normal friday ... so both sis will b in school n dad to the office ..... suppose to wake up around 9 .....too bad ... i over slept and woke up after Steph called me ... telling me that she is already downstairs ......lol !!!

What the heck ... as if she never sees me in my sleepy face b4 ..... lol ...after awhile ... Jack came as well .... lol ..... rushing myself to get ready then off we headed to Central Point at Damansara ..... had our lunch there and dessert at Mcd for their hotcakes .... apparently only tis branch have tis delicacies ....

After that ... off we headed to One Utama to shop shop .... Steph and I went crazy at Diva ... accessories there is damn cheap! lol .... bought a skull necklace for only 12 bucks! wat the heck! lol

Then headed to the nearest Domino's Pizza to pack some food for the party later at my place .......

Got back home around 5 something .... lucky no jam ... is not ... mum will sure kill me for making everyone waiting for the food ......lol

Aunty Sherly and 3 of her doremi's came as well ... lol Ashlee is damn cute now!! sadly she was sick that time .. so she aint as hyper as she used to .....

Alrite ..... let the pictures do the talking la ... i damn malas d

While waiting for the pizzas ....

As usual ... a good way to kill time

LOL ... as usual .. .the pretty normal me

Pass the kodomo lion ad? lol

Shaddap la ... its zit's day ok ....
Hungry me .....
In my room , lol wat r u doin Jack ? lol

Overjoyed after looking at those food on the table ... and my sakai sis behind ... god knows wat is she doin that time

Make a wish ....

My 5ft 7in sis cutting her cake .... she is damn the tall man! ... and cute lil Ashlee looking as cute as ever in pink!

It was just a small party btw hehe ...... unlike those spoilt brads at My Sweet Sixteen .... they really deserve a tight slap from me ....

Send Jack off to FGA then Dad , Steph and I headed over to Hapen ... booze time! lol

Really had a great time wit my sakai buddies and my family ..... hehe and again , Happy Birthday to u Kar Mun!

Oh yeah ... b4 i forget .... i've been busy these few days doin my necklace .... and tis is the final product!

HOHO .... I love it!
And tis one .... a lil gift from daddy today ! lol

Talk abt daddy .. he gave my tis chunted lighter yesterday
Its damn the huge lor ....

But its damn the slim! lol.... thanks daddy! love ya!

And a lil gift from Sze Mun .... lol .... she bought it for me from Jakarta !

Tho it tasted like Semporna .... but a gift is from the heart .... lol thanks a lot babe!

Alright ... next update should b about Modesto and Laundry Bar ..... still waiting for the pictures ..... by today ar sakai! lol

2007-04-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

Randomness ....

As you can see ... the tamagotchi family pratically got themself expanded ..... thanks to my lil sis ... who managed to con my mum to get her one .... and the day after ... her fwen got her another one from aussie! kakakakakakakakaka!!! tis is call karma ok! lol ... since she loves tama sooo much ..... looks like god wanna give her more n more for now ......

I tell u .... its not easy to babysit all 5 tama at once ok! .... lol (the purple wan went missing ... dunu where tat kiddo went n hide it)

She is kinda pro in con job as well btw .... asked my another sis to get version 3 while she got herself version 4 ..... char tou man! ......sighh ... kids now days .....

Been rotting at home basically for the pass few days ... either eating , sleeping , tv , on9 or babysitting those 5 tamas ....... wat kinda life is tis man!

Since today everyone is kinda free .... managed to drag Steph and Jack down to KL to chill out a lil to catch up some stuffs ..... lol ..... and of coz ... i do need to help my parents to get some stuffs for my sis's birthday ......

Ate lunch at the Chicken Rice Shop at Time Square ..... thanks to Jack Jack! .... then we took the train down to Crowne Plaza Hotel to check out the warehouse sale .....trully and expected ... it was really dissapointing and disaster ..... stuffs there r like being kept since the last century! waste of time n money only i tell u!

Got ourself back to Low Yat .... bought the stuff for sis then off we headed to Sg Wang since i wana add my extension ......lol ... and of coz ... tat sakai Steph got another 2 strands done as well ...... swt

After tat ... went yamcha at Kim Gary ..... yada yada ... then home sweet home ....

Lucky Jack was there wit us ... coz the rain started pouring as if there will b no tomorrow ..... as u know ... im pratically half blind especially at night or during raining days ....... and i still have the phobia to drive especially when the road is wet .....

Sadly ... we got stucked in the jam for like dunu how long ..... but at least we did had a great time today!

Huge dissapointed at the warehouse sale ....

Faking my smile ..... wont wana go to any warehouse sale anymore!
Jack .... looking hot !

Too bad ... i look like a bug ..... =(

Tis girl ? ... of coz ... looking as sakai as usual .....

What we do best especially when we got stuck in tat stupid jam .....

LOL i cant take a proper pic for nuts!
-no comment-

thank god tat we managed to take one fine pic in the end ....

Its great meeting up wit my sakais today..... tho i got really pist in the end coz of ....*ehem* .... wat ever la ... i give no shyts to it for now ..... as long u r happy la .... wont wana bother abt it anymore ....

And of coz ... one last shot of my new extensions!

Arla .... poser or lame .... watever la..... but i love my hair now! hohoness

Alrite .... tats all for now ..... sayonara!

2007-04-23T14:43:00.000+08:00

edit :: Good Charlotte .....

Just got some pictures from Steph .... so here u go!

In the car .... b4 heading off to Bukit Jalil

LOL tis pic is damn cute!
UNO time!

Nat , Jason , Steph and Me

Fu yooo! lol i damn like tis picture! lol

2007-04-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte !

Thanks to sakai woman and Jason for giving me da tic ! lol ...happy me!

Pick tat sakai up and off we headed over to Sri Neelas to grab a bite .... then tat sakai forgot to bring money ...... so have to go all the way back to her place then only to Bkt Jalil .... sad case la u !

Met up wit my leng chai son , Edison ... k la ... u damn yeng now .... tat is wat u want to hear from me rite son ? lol .... its been awhile since i last saw him ..... its great to c u again son! lol

The met up wit few fwens , Kel Li , Nat , Cheryl , Bryan , Chowster , Nick , Jason and many more .... lol .... i really really had a great time wit them! tho it was my first time meeting up wit them ... i had fun! hehe

Concert started wit some performances by some local artist ... gosh .... it was boring ... lol so they ended up playing uno card at one corner while i enjoyed smoking there ...hoho

When Good Charlotte came out .... lol the crowd went gila la .... expected .... but lucky us ... we managed to get ourself to the vip stand ... thanks to the people there!! ......

Oh yeah .... bump into Andrew and Roshan there as well! im like bumming into people everywhere man! .... Andrew told me tat Joon Hong and Micheal was there as well ... lol its like a reunion for my fellow tarcians .. lol we shall meet up for yam cha one day man ... miss those days ... our daily routine ... rotting at the park ... kakakakakaaka

Alrite ... enough of rambling for now ... let the picture continue ma ramblings ....hoho

At Sri Neelas .... wit my fav tosai tissue!

The girls !
The line was just crazy ! ... son son! where r u! come to mama!c lol ... gosh .. nonsense me
To kill time ....
Steph , Nat and me

Group pic ... sorry have to curi tis pic from ur bloggie Jason ....hehe ....

It was great meeting up wit u guys ! lol yam cha soon aite! haha ... i had a great time tat nite ... not coz of Good Charlotte but the company tat keeps me goin tho i was suffering wit a pretty bad backache tat nite .....

p/s - lucky u didnt appear in all white without ur undies son! lol

2007-04-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

Mother Fucking Annoying Tart!

I tell you .... people nowdays at msn is mother fucking annoying .... cibai .... especially tis idiot added me randomly n started asking my questions as if im a criminal ....

Idiot - remember me?
Me - yeah ( like duh )
Idiot - where is ur bf?
Me - no bf ..... (swt)
Idiot - okok ....

After a few days .....

Idiot - mind to chat?
Me- yeah
Idiot - busy wit ur bf?
Me - y u keep on asking me questions abt bf or wat so ever?
Idiot - u don like izit? sorry...
Me - been telling u like since day one that im not attached ..
Me - now u still wana ask tat damn question !
Idiot - if u don mind then i can b ur bf lo ...
Me - nahh ... keep urself for other chicks
Idiot - huh ? y ur words so rude wan?
Me - coz u r getting into my nerves! mother!

After few days ....

Idiot - so where is ur bf?
Me - *block tat mahai straight*

Mother fucking asshole! wat the fuck is wrong wit u! .... i dont have a bf or wat so ? ... not that i will die being single u cibai! ... fucking pissing me off especially after soo damn many shits happened ..... fuck off la!

2007-04-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

Kiddodii Kiddy.....

Kinda miss my childhood life ..... stress and problem free ... all u know is to eat , sleep and play ....

Always drag my parent to toy's r us .... i want tis and i wan that ... now ? anything that i wan , of coz not from the toy shop la ... my parents will say ... pay urself la .....

LOL .... sis's bday is just around the corner ... time flies man .....

Mum brought her a tamagotchi the version 3 ...... lol still remember my old tama ..... my lil chicken , dinasour and my doggie .... what happen to it? god knows la ..

It was pretty funny when mum said ok to her when she wanted a tamagotchi ... my another younger sis and i started bugging my mum to get each of us one ..... lol she said dream on +_+

LOL fair enough coz its my sis's first electronic pet ...... while the both us already got one ..... lol ......

LOL .... mine is actually a step counter ... clip it into ur pants and it can meassure how many steps u did in a day ..... the best part .... there was only pikachu tat time when i bought it ...after a week .... their hellokitty version came out ..... damnnnnnnn .... the red one is Karmuns while the purple one is Weimuns .... lol ....

Sad la .... coz of the invention of electronic pet ..... my poor lil fatty ..... lol .....

LOL .... laugh la if u want .... i know i have that kiddo side in myself .... who doesnt btw? lol

Sorry la sakai ... lol have to steal my pic from ur blog .... lol wat to do! u didnt send it to me ! ngek ngek ngek =P

2007-04-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

What Hurts The Most ...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Well ... guess tis will be my another emo post..... again ......
Realised that im up a point whereby i don know who to trust anymore ....
The fear of getting dissapointed all over again did made me being really bitter now ..
Felt that at times ... i do hurt people around me tho i didnt mean to....
But im just afraid of getting hurt nor getting frustrated .... its getting all over me
At times .... i do really wana shut myself off from the world .....

Getting dissapointed by people around me .....one by one ... who is next?
To me ... the very basic in life is honesty .... if u blew it off ... i will never wana trust u again .... its hard to even regain ur trust back towards tat people who dissapoints u...

Often ... all i can say is that life is a bitch .... to add on that ... love is pain as well ...
All people ...every human mankind in tis world is selfish ....
I do admit that i am as well .... but some really went over the limits ....
Why shall i witness myself loosing my own dignity right in front of me?
I dont see a point there ... and all i can say is ... fuck it .....

Im cold .. im bitter ... and im evil .....
But all i wanted is to protect myself from getting hurt again .....

Till today ... i still misses him a lot ...

Especially after bumming into his elder bro yesterday .... really really hate myself at times.....

Its about more than a month since i last heard from him....wondering how is he doing now?

Alright ... enough of ranting .....
Since im still alive and still in one piece ... just wana update my blog a lil ....

Was out wit my fwens these few days .....went over to Sg Wang wit Steph ... tho it was a last min planning .... we did had fun there .....
From getting hair extension to running around the mall .... lol ...guess i still have tat sakainess in myself ....

Went over to MV today wit Prema and Steph ...... another great time i had wit them ....
Really really had a great time laughing my ass off standing beside the pool table .... u both really did made my day ... lol

Got my hair coloured btw ..... pics of me and steph after getting our hair extensions done

Life is short ... just doin wat i like to do ....

Sigh .... really really sad now ..... guess all human on earth are evil .... especially ... =X

2007-04-17T02:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Ah Pin!!

Jack jack .. turning 20 today ...hehe .... really really greatfull to have u as one of my platonic fwen ..... well ... time really flies man .... we knew each other for 14 years already! lol

Well .... we celebrated Jack's birthday last Saturday since tis week is all about exam for him .... hehehehehe ...pity u la

Went to The Ship at Damansara there for dinner wit of coz the bday boy , Steph , Annie and Nadia .... the old highskool gang of mine hehe .... food there are amazing! tho i ran away when my sizzling chicken came ... lol .... just went to the salon ma .... later my hair smells of chicken ok! lol

Well , since all of us are bored wit the old traditition of the high calories and fattening birthday cake ... lol ... we actually got him 2 huge ass brownies instead as his bday cake ... lol

Lol ... birthday boy looking as happy as ever ... lol

One fine pic of the bday boy

After dinner , we decided to head over to The Curve to have some drinks there ....

Met up wit Sze Mun , the sakai woman lol since she is working there on weekends ..... oh yah! thanks for the sanitary pad sakai! lol oops! .....=P

Went over to Laundry Bar ... nice place and nice enviroment ... very chillaxing .... yada yada there while Steph and Nadia went missing at the bazaar market .... swt ... as usual .... who doesnt like shopping anyway? lol .... just tat im too broke ... decided not to get myself depressed over those pretty stuffs there lol

Ying Roe came over ... lol looking as hot as ever ..... Sze Mun's face is damn red mannnn .....and i don know wat was i doin tat time .... swt

Thank god that tat two sakais remember how to come back .... lol ... of coz ... they almost bought the whole bazaar market back ..... LMFAO

LOL .... our old trademark .... lol which one is mine? lol .. make a guess lo

Last picture that almost got us killed .... lol too bad the pic is blur coz a car was coming our way ... lol so we ran b4 kena rammed by tat huge ass car

LOL really really had a great time wit my sakai buddies .... lol ..... and tat sakai Sze Mun forgot her way to her car ......lol so tat sakai hopped into Nadia's car and together we went around the parking lot to find for her car .... lol... sad case la u tomato girl! lol ... LOL its great meeting up wit u again Sze Mun .. i really really had fun!

Well Jack , 14 years just passed by in a snap ..... im really really greatful and thankful for everything u did for me .... including bringing god into my life .....

Tho u will b going off to Aussie tis coming July .... best wishes for u ok ...... gonna miss u badly !

And by the way ... one more thing b4 i go off to bed .....

. you will either get a heartattack , asthma attack , pee on ur pants or laugh ur cute lil bumm bumms off

. u ready?

...

Jeng jeng jeng! lol omg Jack will kill my for sure now! lol ... tis pic was taken about 13 or 14 years back ... lol ... still a small lil kiddo .... LMFAO

2007-04-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

SpeedieZone....

Yay! pictures are here ... so its time for some lil update abt the rave party happened not long ago at KL Tower .....

Was at Sg Wang b4 that wit Prema , Nadiaz and a few more friends... shop shop ...makan and chilled out a lil around that area.... managed to grab a top for the event later .... lucky me

Then went over to KL Tower around 5.30 .... damn a lot of people man ... mostly all lining up for the tickets .... thank god me and Prema bought our tickets like days b4 the event .....around 6.30 , they announced that all tickets are sold off ..... and that was damn fast man! 2k tickets sold out on the spot just like tat ........

Bump into Alan and few of his buddies .... the last time i saw him was like more than 3 years ago! ... and he still recognised me ... lol ..... then bump into Jess ..... yada yada there ... then its party time baby! lol .....

Bump into Khai Hoe ... coz he was working there .... so not surprised la ....lol ... all lepak around there till about 8 , the crowd was getting bigger and bigger .....

Prema's fwen came around 9 something ..... then all lepak there together gether lol ... wat a big group mannnnnn .......

The best part was dancing at the podium ...... the crowd was massive ... took us more than 30 mins to get into the center of the stage there .... lol ... but it was fun!

Yogi was the bomb that night ...everyone went crazy when he appeared ..... firecrackers and all .... it was a great spectacular .....

Went off around 1ish ..... and i can say is that i had a blast at the party ... lol

Main entrance

Dunu why they put tat huge ass car there ... waste space only ....

Jess , Prema and I ... picture taken by the photographers there ...

LOL the sakai gang .... Rico , Sac , Simon , Bobo , Anthony , Phaty , Tref and many more ... i had a hard time remembering their names mannnn ....

Well .... as usual .... the sakai gang will always remain sakai .... oh yeah ... that's Khai Hoe ... the one wearing red .... surprisingly , they all know each other .... lol what a small world

Yoji! fucking love his hair!

I dont know how many people was there ... as i know its pretty massive and crazy that night

Was wondering ... how we managed to get up to the podium by the way ? lol ... glad that everyone did had a blast!

Pure madnessss

LOL .... wat a day ..... so next rave people! LETS GO!

p/s - most of the pictures above are from www.klubbers.net ......more pictures there!

I was basically half deaf for two days after the party ..... sad sad .... lol .... but what the heck! it was all worth it!

2007-04-11T03:02:00.000+08:00

Life is full wit joy and sorrow ..... never ending laughter and tears ....

I do miss him a lot somehow ...... i also don know why

And now i know why my bill came up almost to 300 bucks! FUCK!