Best wishes to u guys and happy birthday again!

11:06 PM

Adik send me tis song earlier ... damn nice.... thanks babi!

How to save a life by The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

10:53 PM

Random Post ...

Here i am ... chilling out in ma room wit a ciggie on ma hand .... thinking that y my life is soo damn mother fucking sucky .... thinking how shytty things can b .... i just hate life somehow ....

I know that not all things will go my way .... but tats the only thing im hoping for now .... wat else i hav in life then ? .... i have doubts wit everything around me ... insecure .... just wana drop to my feet n cry my lungs out ..... wishing tat he will come and hold me up ... but life is full wit dissapointment and he is facing some other craps as well .... i don know i can hold on for how long now .... i dont know .....

Saw tis thingy awhile ago ... well ... tis is shittier than my n his problems ....
http://www.zerotohundred.com/newforums/showthread.php?t=118767&page=1
Those wit weak heart please don click on it orite .... don say i didnt warn u guys b4 ....

I wonder how's the driver gonna go back to his/her normal life .... what abt his/her loved ones? ... tis is really heartbreaking ..... so people .... drive safely k ..... don think tat the road belongs to ur father or grandmother .... dont have the intention to show off ur ride .... safety always come first .... and rest in peace k for the one who got killed in that accident ... god bless ...

9:22 PM

4:08 PM

No Place Like Home ...

10:33 AM

Rise and Shine ....

Just woke up .... had a terrible headache last nite .... and im sleepy *yawns*

Gave babe a call awhile ago ... he is doing pretty fine ... and remember what i told u aite .... *huggies*

Realised that in life .... unexpected things can happen in just a snap .... there will always b a twist last minute .... not all things will go ur way and nothing comes easy in life ....

Having doubts or being suspicious ... all washed away wit a flow of the tears .... i shared the pain as well ... its not easy this time .....

Lord takes note of human tears. In a time of great distress, the Psalmist petitioned the Lord: ”. . . put my tears into your bottle” (Psa. 56:8). The lament suggests that the tears of God’s children are so precious that, in a manner of speaking, he would wish to preserve and treasure them as a costly liquid.

Hope for the very best for today ... tomorrow .... the day after tomorrow .... god bless ...

10:41 AM

Miracle do exist ..... i believe in it now ....

8:32 PM

A New Beginning ....

New Chapter In Life .....

It was a trully dissapointing night last night ..... thought i will be given the very last chance .... but i was wrong ...... its really heartbreaking ...

Talked to daddy ...the whole nite about it .... holding on to my tears .... it was a struggle .... i dowan dad to see me like this .... furthermore what he is going thru now .... its just nothing compared to his ....

Like what he said .... if he is not urs .... he is not then ....no matter how you push things to....

Its a beautiful Sunday i should say to start off a new chapter for myself ....a new life ... new hope ....wit new dreams ....

Its easy to say the word 'letting it go' than erasing him trully from my mind ... it takes time ...3 weeks? 3 months? 3 years ? i dont know ..... nno matter what .... im wounded ....

searching and looking for the light ... the light which will lead me to a better future .... at least ... there is a hope .....

9:28 AM

Sat-Ur-Day....

Eyes kinda bengkak when i woke up ... think coz of last nite .... mata damn sepet now ... but at least still bigger than his .... akakakakk *evil grins*

Babe told me last nite at Zouk was okok only .... came back around 2 ... his normal timing ..... i wana go to Zouk ! but he told me i cannot go .... coz 21 and above only can go in .... he said he got tat mature look so its an advangate for him .... wat the ......

Alex and Ah Bee came over just now .... lol ... he and his craps will never end man .... Alex said he wana change his job soon .... gosh! bugger! finally! .....*halleluyah!*

Cant stop playing wit the wiggly bear .... lol .... there is still a kiddo side of me ok ....

Wana get ink .... do wanted to get a celtic cross on ma back ... but mum strongly against it .... she said get another design better .....

Downloaded some Catholic worhip songs ..... now i can see difference between Catholic and Protestant .... like what Jack told me .... Catholic is more of the traditional side of Christianity .... their songs r more holy holy .... damn peaceful ... futhermore no one is at home now .... wooohooooooo ...

Hope today will be a good day .... keeping my finger crossed ....

12:18 PM

Tis is hilarious ! ...thanks son hehe ..u did make ma day =)


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11:58 PM

Why you wana treat me like this ? im a humans as well .. i can feel pain .... why u wana push me up to tis situation? .....

im lost ..... varnishing thru time .... i don know who am i anymore ....

9:53 PM

Outting wit ma buddies ....

Been awhile since we last hang out together ....

Went to many places today .... was out with them since 10 till 3 something .... damn effin tired man ... but i had fun wit them

Picked Steppi up around 9.30 ... then off to Avenue K to pick Jack up ... then off we went to Genting Klang for breakfast ...

Since Jack haven't try the Suah Mee b4 .... lol y not then ....

After makaning ... went off the a nearby salon ... Steppi wana get her hair wash while i got ma locks snippy snip .... kinda flat now ... no more fluffy hair .... =(

Jack got 3 tickets for the SkyBridge at the Pertonas Twin Tower at 12.45 ... then off we headed to KLCC after getting our hair done ....

Awesome view tho frm the bridge ... everything is damn tiny .... miniature cars to people .... hehe ... its cute .....

Oooo yeah ... bump into Daphne at the carpark there .... omg man .... the last time i saw her was like ages ago! ... its great to see her again ... and still looking at pretty as ever .... *winks*

BB area was our next destination .... went over to Sg Wang .... saw tis cutie lil bear necklace .... lol .... the hands n legs are flexible tho! .... wiggling here and there ... haha and cost only 24 bucks ! ... after some barganing of coz and wit Steppi... the Queen of Barganer .... haha ... its all worth it furthermore its made of stainless steel ..... not bad ....

Jack was pretty hungry then ... went makan at KFC ..... lol ..... and of coz .. non stop camwhoring there .... swt

Went over to Starhill after tat ..... took some pictures and we were damn tired ....

Went off around 3 something to 4 ...... well ... i had fun hehe .... wat a great day i had ..

8:47 PM

Hehe .... much better

8:27 PM

8:14 PM

8:05 PM

Best I Ever Had by Vertical Horizon ....



So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Listened to tis song in the car earlier .... bringing back those old sweet memories i had .... its either i should cry or keep a smile on ma face .... im emofied ....

5:15 PM

LMFAO

Sopo! kakakakakaka ..... she gonna kill me soon .... *runs away*

1:37 AM

LOL .... read some artical abt blackmagic ..... lol ..... don worry .... just to kill time .... haha

Hope miracle will happen today ..... im depressed ....

Where am i now?

9:11 PM

Fucker .... go find a book and get more education ... for ur parent's sake n for god's sake as well u mother fucker ... now fucking fuck off from here .... and don fucking show me ur fucked up face anymore .... fank you ....

edit :: LMFAO serve u rite! hope u end up in jail now!

5:15 PM

2:59 PM

Purpose Driven Life .....

Just finish talking to babe on the phone .... he got back home around 11.30 last nite .... guess its another busy week for him .... told me bikes from Europe came and its in pieces .... so hav to fix it for them b4 he leave ..... its sad for me coz he cant even enjoy himself b4 he leaves to Japan ..... sigh ....

Im at Chapter 9 now for the book Purpose Driven Life ..... introed by Jack .... somehow .... its like a smack in the head where soo many things coming across ma life has been answered ....

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen , but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary , but what is unseen is eternal "Corinthians 4:18 ...

Like they said , everything is planned for God's pleasure .... living on earth is like a test , an assigment for us b4 to eternity of life .... well ... its a great book i should say .... as for people like me who never complete a book b4 in ma 19 years of life .... lol .... hope tis will b the first book to be finish by me =P .... hohoness

I wonder how is Annie now .... i felt terrible for her .... keeping my finger crossed that her granny will be alright ... u take care k gurl .... hope to see u real soon ..

Talked to mummy earlier .... slipped in the idea of getting my fringe cut in our convo .... lol ... well ... guess its time for a snippy snip.... she said she looked like a sopo now also .... haha .... but till she asked .... izit neccesary to spend money on tat ? ..... somehow ... she got a point there .. n guess i should say ... some other time then .... =)

Any idea where can i get tis rosary ? im loving it

The Rosary is a powerful tool to help us achieve peace ... within our families ... within our world.

The Holy Father tells us,

As a prayer for peace, the Rosary is also, and always has been, a prayer of and for the family. At one time this prayer was particularly dear to families, and it certainly brought them closer togther. It is important not to lose this precious inheritance. We need to return to the practice of family prayer and prayer for families ...

The family that prays together stays together. The Holy Rosary, by age-old tradition, has shown itself particularly effective as a prayer which brings the family together. Individual family members, in turning their eyes towards Jesus, also regain the ability to look one another in the eye, to communicate, to show solidarity, to forgive one another and to see their convenant of love renewed in the Spirit of God.

Rosarium Virginis MariaePara 41

p/s - Sze Mun ... tat guy looks like Vanness OK ! LMAO

11:41 AM

Im having a bad time now .... the worst feeling ever ....
Thought today will be another good day ... guess i was wrong ...
People i love the most might breakdown anytime soon ... and so do i....
I dont know why ..... its hard to hear him saying tat ....
Who izit? ..... no worries .... its not Gine aite ....

Just called babe .... he is still working ... and its already 11 at nite now ....
Thank god he managed to grab a bite earlier .... he misses it sometimes ...
I miss him badly .... wana talk to him badly now .....
But i know myself .... he is forever working ....
He will be leaving next monday .... ma another support will be gone soon ....
I dont know how .... i don know why ....
Ma mind is totally blank now .....

11:16 PM

TueS-Day...

Called babe last night .... lol ... he sounded damn tired ..... first time listening to his voice like tat ..... HAHA .... take more goodie rest k dear ..... *muaks* ... he told me Cameron was pretty okok only coz was raining when they got there ... he went there wit his crew ... all vroom vroom there wit their superbikes ... lucky he is back home safely i should say .... swt ......

Annie called me today morning .... i felt hopeless somehow ..... all i can do is to give her all the support .... gurl .... chilllax k ... will always b there for u ..... *huggies*

Alex came again today .... lol ... he is damn funny! he came together wit Ah Bee .. both also sesat case la .... talking crap all the time ... he n his crap will never end .... after they ciao .... on the phone also wana crap .... aiyoyo ..... double swt ....

Make ma sis cry earlier .... eish .... pissing me off to the max .... asked her to shut up ... and there she goes ... to the toilet n started crying there ..... =.=" ... watever la ...

Got prema's sms earlier .... her mum is sick ... gosh .... hope she is alright k ... u also better take good care of urself k .....

Hope today will b another good day .... keeping my finger crossed .... take care people .... KAMPAI !

3:58 PM

Im pissed ! .... ma maid actually throw ma ballet shoes away!!! WTH O.O

11:32 AM

Flashiebacks ...

Was looking thru some old pictures .. lol .. omg man .... its a real disaster !

Steppi and I then starting sending our old pictures to each other thru Skype coz MSN is being a realt bitch last nite ....

LOL ... cant stop laughin our butt off man!! ...everyone look different now .... haha ....

This picture was taken during Christmas 2004 at Arthur's place ... 2 years ago man .... lol looking damn karat ! hahahahahahahahahhahahahaha!
During Raya 2005 at Nadia'z place .... LMAO all look damn innocent man .... lol ... seriously miss u guys ! LMAO tis is da bomb! taken at Chloe's place ... a week after she and Jack came back from NS ... lol ... Jack was BOTAK tat time!! lol .....and me wit ma real karat hairdo .... wat was i thinking man ..... Steppi still wearing her spects tat time ..... *evil grins*
During CNY tis year .... yeah ... ma hair was still short ... damn round also ... lol ... look at Steppi ... sesat la she !!

Us now ..... lol ....

Taken at Sunway Piramid during the Hitz.fm's party ...... lol ... Steppi is getting hotter now ... kakakakakka ....

Me now ..... ok ... i do look like ma mummy .... lol

5:17 PM

SuN-Day ....

My day was pretty ok ....
Babe went off to Cameron today .... hope he is having a great time there ...
Miss him badly .....

Alex came again today .....
Pity him la .... there goes his weekend ...

Went over to Hannah's place earlier ....
Dont feel pretty good there ... went off after awhile ...
Got pretty pist ... what the fuck is wrong wit u?
Ah ... watever man ....
Chatted wit Lionel ... lol .... he is really funny .... haha

Prema send me tis song ... 'love me or hate me' by lady sovereign ...
....If u love me then ..thank you ... if u hate me then .... FUCK U....
LOL ... its awesome ! ...cant stop listening to it ....
Heard tis song as well ... Music Box by Precognition ... damn nice !
but cant find it at lamewire ... =( ... sighhh

Hope everything will go pretty well tomorrow ....
Keeping my finger crossed ....

Miss u babe .....

Its just like living in a war zone now .... u wont know wat will happen tomorrow .... or even after tis hour .... everything is a battle .... a struggle to keep urself from falling .... i dare not complain ... i dare not speak .... just hoping for the best and him wit me all the time goin thru tis battle .... when will tis come to an end?

8:54 PM

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